Failure

Failure
[feyl-yer]
-n. Nonperformance of something due, required, or expected

As said, failure is (only) nonexistent of something you required, or expected, or wished, or wanted. It does mean you are lack of success, it does true that you fell to the bottom when you failed, it does signify that you don't deserve the thing you actually required. But then again, why should see that way? This is all the matter of your perspective, of how you see things.

Failure does not precisely refer to the word "unsuccessful". Not even in the dictionary. It is more like a condition where you are granted with abundant chances to try and do better. It is when you can value yourself and do self-improvement. And self-improvement is sure a crucial thing to embrace if you want to continue life in mirth. Failure, in any way, would inevitably exist for every step you take. And no matter how accustomed you are to it, you would still fall down when you failed; something unseen smashed you up and collided you to pieces. But pieces could assemble and strike back; thus there is still a huge chance to win the fight. Failure, does it indicate that you don't deserve the thing you think you did? What if, contrarily, you actually deserved something better? It may sound cliché and so not logical, but what if it is true? It's just you didn't look closer.

Failure, I guess, is only one of the uncountable blessings God bestows upon me, His way to wake me up from daydreams, to slap me in the face and see how would I react: encounter, or stay still to ask Him why He did that. It is His very simple way to evaluate whether I would still be faithful beneath the trials. He wants to see whether I could bravely learn from my mistakes, or hide in my tears instead.

It is His very humble way, to show me that He does care, He does look after me, and He does love me more than I think He will. I don't know, I just knew all that.