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guys, do you ever feeling like what i'm feeling right now?

you have already a boyfriend/girlfriend, yes you happy with him, you loved him on every breath you take, you loved him on every way he did. but... when he's not on your side anymore, when you both two separated, someone that special also for you, comes to your head and bother you. bother your love, bother your thoughts, bother you at all.

he is... he is someone that you may think that you don't love him, but actually, deep in your heart, you love him, on the other ways you love your own boyfriend.

it's very bothering! because you don't wanna love him. you don't wanna dishonest with your boyfriend. you don't wanna lie on your heart, but you love him!

you try to forget everything about him, but you can't. he's just too god to be forgotten. your trying was never worth it, because he always come and come again without permission, don't care how hard you've try to forgot him.

you try to be closer and closer with your boyfriend so that you could forget him, but you can't also. because, because he always comes on your head then... again, without any permission. you wanna think about only your boyfriend, but it's really hard!!! he always trying to come in.

why... why do you look so charming on my eyes? why do when you gaze on me i couldn't thinking anything, you hypnotized me, and I even couldn't winking anymore...

why do you always make me sick of all these things?! why do you always make me thinking of you, what are you doing right now, what are you thinking right now, and I know the answer i thought. you don't thinking of me. is it right, dude?

yes, i know that you already have a girlfriend. a veeeeery adorable girlfriend. and you have much fans dude, i know it too. your trying to make me jealous in every way you talked about your girls is very well. you did make me jealous. you did.

but why dude, why if you don't love me at all, if you just consider me as a friend, why did you oftenly steal some gaze on me in a day!? it makes me love you more and more!! and why did you always do such things that make you seems like care to me!? it makes you look very gentleman to me! and why did the way you touched me was very soft!? it makes me don't wanna lose your touch!

gyaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!

if you really hate me, so please hate me!! don't do such things like you don't! huhuhuhu... i'm really sick, guys. help me... he makes me cry..... i don't like crying, but i can't stop this!! :'(