For Those Who Have Missed Me

I can't seem to write anything properly. But these are things you might wanna know:
1. My feet still touch the ground. Yeah, just in case some of you considered I died already or something, I'm still alive. (hooray?)
2. If I have to fill a form and I need to put an address, I will eventually write "Pogung Baru Blok A3 No. 11, YOGYAKARTA." And it feels weird.
3. My boy has just moved to America. For 10 months or so. No explanation for this.
4. My dorm is no cool. The girls are nothing more than I expected. But they're lovely sometimes. <3
5. I slept in almost all of my lectures. Don't blame me! The lecturers are all old and boring! Good news is, I never get caught. :--p
6. And the assignments are killing me in a way.
7. Also the weather.
8. Well, I love Yogyakarta. But there's no place like home. Literally.
9. Thus I wish mom moves here so I don't have to live alone.
10. Because I suck at washing.
11. And I even more suck at managing money.
12. Kay, more good news: my seniors are handsome. :3
13. And.... I got plenty of gorgeous friends who will help me unconditionally! That's the highlight! Yay!
14. Well that's all to say. Ah! One more thing. I've missed you too. :--D

Over and out!

I Should Admit This' Just Another Piece Of Crap

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So here I am again, wakeful. I have been thinking about something lately, which is the reason why I am wide-awake every night.

Before, I was sitting in front of my laptop, my fingers rested on every letter. I wanted to write. I wanted to create just one brilliant story. But I couldn’t. I didn’t make any sense. My head was filled. What filled my head I did not know. The fear of writing again was the interruption. Once I hold a pen in my right hand and blankly stare at blank pages, I become intimidated. I am afraid that when I start writing I would discover that I do not have anything to write. Again, I did not make sense. It is funny to see that I write under circumstances like these. When I am not forced or where I am not surrounded by eventful activities or in this case, when I have nothing to write at all.

But in fact, I keep on writing and writing, shaping one word after one word, figuring what story I would come up with at the end. Nothing. Yet.

It’s actually not that I don’t have anything to write. Instead, it's actually because I have become excess with enormous quantity of words which now conquering my peanut-sized brain so I couldn’t write anything properly in this sheet at this very moment. But I guess I will force my brain to work pretty harder so I could write anything I should write down here.

Oh man. I don’t even know if my grammar is practically correct or not.

Have I triggered a pain inside your head?

Well, here. I have two major things bothering my mind quite a lot these days. First, it’s about my departure to Yogyakarta in only 4 days ahead. Why does it bother me? Because, first, the circumstance will force me to live alone in there, in my dormitory. While me, ever since I born, never actually living alone without my parents by my side. And leaving my parents that way is kind of making me frustrated. Moreover the Ramadhan month is coming even closer! I can’t cook! I can’t wake up early in the middle of the night to eat sahur! I can’t control my life the way my mom used to control it to me! I would just mess it up and my Ramadhan month would be pretty sucks. I don’t have any idea how to manage myself during the coming up living-alone life.

Okay. I have elaborated it quite structured, haven’t I? At least I've made you catch up my point, no? Err... Whatever.

Second thing, it’s about my idiot love flick! I got two major stories of all. First off, something about my “best crush” which I lately reveal pretty much obvious in Tumblr. But soooo sorry I wouldn’t share you guys the url up here. It’s way too private. Second off, something about my “best brother” which I had written in Tumblr pretty much clear—and long—as well. So, I won’t spend more time talking about the two of it in here.

See? This is nonsense. Then why in the world you start to write, Put? I do not know.

Ah… These eyes have got blurred. My head aches but I don’t feel sleepy at all. I guess I will be wide-awake for the rest of the night... But the post is quite long enough so I will just post it on and…. Poof. I’m gone.

Honey, I've told you. This is just another piece of crap and I didn't make any sense. Why did you start reading?

Too Sad To Even Think of A Title

Hermione : How does it feel, Harry? When you see Dean with Ginny?
Harry : [slightly taken aback] Oh. Um...
Hermione : I know. I've seen the way you look at her. You're my best friend.
[Ron bursts in with Lavender, laughing, then sobers when he sees Hermione and Harry]
Lavender : Oops!... I think this room's taken.
[runs off]
Ron : [awkwardly] ... What's with the birds?
Hermione : [Stands, glares at Ron] Oppugno!
[Hermione's flock of birds fly at Ron, who flees the room. Hermione sinks next to Harry and breaks down crying]
Harry : It feels like this.

- Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Does it hurt too, Harry? Because for me, yes it does hurt.

Is sad,

Random In The Midnight

Midnight already. And I’m still sleepless. What to do? Write a post, shall I?

Well, typically me, setiap saat sebelum tidur pasti banyak banget deh yang dipikirin. Bahkan kayaknya pikiran gue paling aktif bekerja saat menjelang tidur. Dan itu menjelaskan mengapa mimpi-mimpi gue kebanyakan campur-aduk dan abnormal. Jadi, daripada gue mimpi macem-macem, dan semua hal yang gue pikirin malah tidak tersampaikan, mending gue tulis disini aja kali ya. Haha what can I say? I always love sharing with strangers! But this is all random, kalo ada hal lain yang lebih penting untuk dikerjain, mendingan kerjain dulu aja deh. Hahaha mau dibaca nggak sih Put? Well, oke. Here, just finish the list and… In-joy!

1. Muhammad Fauzan Triandi (the same person in this post), sahabat terdekat gue selama dua tahun ini, Alhamdulillah baru saja keterima di Teknik Kimia Universitas Indonesia dan Sekolah Farmasi Institut Teknologi Bandung. To make it short, pokoknya gue seneng banget. Waktu tau dia keterima UI, gue bahkan sampe langsung terduduk lemas di lantai gitu. Padahal dia sendiri belum tau beritanya. Hahaha hebat kan gue. But he decided to take ITB anyway. Well, whatever he takes, I will always support and encourage him! Inget deh waktu dia keterima Farmasi ITB, dia langsung tanya gue, “Ade seneng?” (dengan emot nangis terharu) Gue kontan langsung bales pake capslock. “Seneng banget Ka, Demi Tuhan, kita jadi satu jurusan gini!” hahaha. But then I remember. Bandung – Jogja ya? It’s 9 hours by train. Meskipun kita nggak pacaran atau apa, tapi tetep aja dia salah satu orang paling berpengaruh dalam hidup gue. Nggak tau deh ya, apa gue bisa tahan? :'(

2. Gue putus sama Restu. Dari bulan April kemaren. Hehe basi ya? Tapi masalah ini somehow sering melintas aja gitu di pikiran gue sebelum gue tidur. Jadi gini lho sodara-sodara, semenjak gue putusin itu, dia jadi antipati banget sama gue. SMS dan mention gue di twitter kebanyakan ga dibales, kalo pun dibales juga singkat padat ga jelas gitu. Ya keki lah ya gue. Secara gue yang mutusin, ga niat juga kali gue ngejar-ngejar dia buat balikan atau apa, gue cuma pengen menyambung tali silaturahmi aja. Tapi dia kayaknya nangkepnya gue ngejar-ngejar dia gitu. Hahaha funny eh? Sampe akhirnya, entah gimana ceritanya, gue malah jadi deket sama keluarga dia. Terutama Mama dan adeknya yang paling kecil. Gue jadi sering jalan bareng si Tante gitu. Dan adeknya, De Acha, juga nempeeeel banget sm gue. Apa-apa sama gue, apa-apa sama gue. Berasa babysitter abis. Dan termasuk si Om juga; tiap dia tugas ke luar negeri pasti bawain gue oleh-oleh. Kemaren dibeliin lukisan gitu dari Jepang (lucu banget!), dan tiga cup eskrim (Haagen Dazs) dari Aussie. Haha makasih ya Om! :) Oh ya, si Tante sama Om ini katanya sih pengen banget gue sm Abang balikan lagi. Kata Om, sejak Abang jadian sama Putri, semangat belajarnya jadi meningkat (iya lho, dia sampe mendadak rangking 1 gitu! HAHAHA gue merasa keren!), terus Putri juga baik, cantik, pinter, ga macem-macem, dst dst dst. Aduh gimana ya, emang gue ini calon menantu idaman banget kali yaaa…. HUAHAHAHAHAHA minta ditampar lo Put. Oke, to make it short again (padahal udah panjang), akhirnya one day gue ngajak dia balikan. Jeng jeng jeng jeng! Iya lho gue beneran ngajakin dia balikan! Dan tau ngga apa jawabannya? “Ga mau. Gue udah suka sama orang lain.” JLEB TO THE MAX! Eh tolong ya, Restu, gue ngajak lo balikan juga karena dorongan dari orangtua lo kali, najis! Kepedean banget sih lo, sok kecakepan! Ditolak tau rasa lo! (Eh tapi kalo diterima pun pasti ceweknya ga sebaik gue) --> minta ditampar lagi.

(Me and De Acha)
*Aduh itu pipinya mita dimamam banget deh! hahaha*
Click here for more photos of me and her. ;)

3. Gue lagi demen dengerin lagu Vidi Aldiano – Cemburu Menguras Hati. Huahahahahha berasa alay ga sih? Iya, alay ya? Tapi beneran enak lho. Serius deh, vibranya Vidi tuh gimanaaa gitu berasa menggetarkan hati. Hahah anjrit gue ga banget deh ah! (fyi, bahkan sekarang pun lagu ini yang lagi playing di telinga gue. Oke, silahkan ngakak!) Eh, maaf, Vidies, no offense. :)

4. Lusa gue ke Jogja. Eh, ralat, besok deh. Ini udah Senin kan? Hehe. Iya, besok gue ke jogjaaaaa. Sendiri lho, sendiri! Hebat kan? Pengalaman pertama nih ke luar kota sendiri! Woohoo agak takut juga sih. Tapi ga apa-apa, harus mulai berani dari sekarang. Kan udah gede Put! (ceilah). Oh ya penerbangannya yang jam 6 pagi lho. Biar nyampe sana langsung ketemu Indita dan Sasha, my bestfriends I found from blogger, dan maen seharian sampe puaaaaas! Ah I bet it’s gonna be suuuuper fun! Can hardly wait for tomorrow! xD

5. Handphone gue rusak parah! Yah, emang udah jadul sih, Sony Ericsson W380i, yang ungu imut-imut gitu lho. HAHA ralat, DULU sih iya imut-imut waktu masih baru, sekarang mah amit-amit gelaaa! Udah sompel-sompel gitu keypadnya (terus masa kata Tio itu sengaja gue sompelin?! Ya nggak lah! Kurang kerjaan amat coba gue!); USB port-nya udah bapuk, connector buat charger dan headset juga udah mendekati ajal (mau ngecharge susah banget meeen!), layarnya udah penuh goresan, flip-flapnya hampir copot, dan masih banyak lagi kecacatannya. Hahaha kayaknya kalo gue jual IDR 50.000 juga ga akan ada yang mau bok ya? Tapi tenang kata Papa nanti dia mau beliin gue hape baru. Tapi nggak sekarang, katanya gue belum perlu. Lagi liburan ini kan? Ntar pas udah mau deket-deket kuliah aja. Dan yang ini otomatis ga akan dijual dong, penuh kenangan gitu selama dua taun di aksel. :) (anyway, kayaknya sih ga akan beli BB deh yaaa… entah kenapa gue ga tertarik banget sm BB. Affordable sih sebenernya, bokap gue juga bukannya ga mampu beliin BB, tapi guenya ga kepengen aja gitu. Kayaknya mending nokia E63 ato iPhone sekalian! BB overrated banget, gue malah jadi berasa alay kalo make BB, apalagi kalo dipakenya cuma buat twitter-an dan fb-an. Iuuhh). Eh, no offense lagi ya BB user! Pendapat pribadi gue kok. :)

6. Gue lagi sakit perut PMS nih. Ini juga jadi salah satu alesan sakral kenapa gue susah tidur gini daritadi—selain semua alasan diatas tentunya. Huhuuuu kata si Kakak sih suru diangetin pake air anget, tapi males bikinnya harus keluar kamar. :’(((

7. I miss him. I miss my brother. Awfully. Dia lagi di Bandung sekarang. Oh this can’t be any clearer. Hahaha yes I miss Mr. Fauzan Triandi—who never actually missed me back. But I just do. I don’t care if he missed me too or not. I just…. miss him. Tuh kaaaan kalo nanti kepisah Bandung – Jogja gimana cobaaa? Huhuhu :’( (mulai mellow)

8. Oke, post ini kayaknya terlalu frontal ya? Tapi bodo ah. :P

9. Oh ya, missing your own brother is not a mistake, eh? I used to do all sorts of things with him. We shared the desk during our two years in acceleration, kemana-mana bareng (kecuali ke WC), kalo minta pendapat pasti harus ke dia dulu, dan begitupun dia ke gue. Kalo ngobrol di telpon bisa sampe jam setengah 12 malem, sebelum akhirnya dua-duanya ngantuk dan tidur deh. hahaha. Jadi kayaknya aneh aja gitu kalo mulai kuliah nanti, ga ada dia lagi di sisi gue. Ga ada yang siap sedia dengerin cerita gue lagi 24 jam. Ga ada yang nenangin gue kalo gue lagi ada masalah, sampe nangis-nangis sesenggukan di depan dia. Pasti bakal aneh banget kan. Dan anyway, dia bakalan pindah ke Bandung, entirely his family, mulai pertengahan Juli besok. Jadi, kalo gue nanti pulang ke Serang, gue ga bisa maen sama dia. Harus ke Bandung! Anjriiit sedih banget ga sih. Huhuhuks :'(((

10. Sudah poin ke-10 dan gue belum juga ngantuk.

11. How’s the World Cup goin’? I don’t really into it, anyway. Gue ga terlalu suka bola. Tapi kayaknya gue dukung Perancis deh. Habis negaranya kan bagus, jadi pasti menang. Haha ga nyambung deh Put. Ya gitu lah pokoknya. Gue ga ngerti bola. Apa sih serunya ngeliatin 22 orang rebutan satu bola di lapangan gede gitu? Mana suara terompetnya weird banget lagi, kayak suara tawon ga berenti-berenti gitu! Hih mending nonton NBA kemana-mana deh! (YAY LAKERS!) Oh ya tapi opening ceremony-nya kemaren keren juga lumayan. Hahaha cemen abis gue nonton itunya doang.

12. Ah yaaaa tanggal 26 besok gue farewell lho! Eh, tapi jadi nggak ya? Duh, ga asik banget kalo ga jadi. Semoga jadi deh. Adek-adekku anggota OSIS yang keren, kerja yang bener ya biar farewell-nya jadi, gue udah booking kebaya lho. Hohoho, dan gue juga udah ngebayangin temen-temen aksel gue yang pada bocek (childish –red) itu make kebaya dan jas. Pasti keren-keren semua deeehh… xD

13. Hamster gue hari ini ulang tahun yang ke-sebulan lho! Hahahaha iya dong udah sebulan tinggal di rumah gue. Keren kan bisa awet gitu… Eh, btw, udah gue kasih makan belum ya tadi? Ah tau ah. Mereka harus diet, udah terlalu gendut! Bahaya kan kalo sampe obesitas… (alibi padahal emang males ngasih makan)

Here they are... Hahaha iya hobinya emang ngegigitin besi kandang. Namanya Rhino dan Eric.
Ahh... Aren't they cute as hell? :#)
Click here for more photos of them.

14. *stare the clock* *yawn* Udah jam setengah satu nih, kayaknya gue mau tidur aja deh.

Well, this is Putri over and out. CIAO!

Benetton Color

Benetton Color for Man. Loving it.

PS. Thank you, Muhammad Fauzan Triandi for giving me this. hehe :)

When

How do you know when you’re in love with someone? Is it when he’s the first thing that comes into your mind when you wake up and the last thing that you think of before you go to sleep? Or is it when your heart melts every time he looks into your eyes? The truth is, the signs come in a thousand different ways.

When you’re having a really bad day and hearing his voice on the phone just makes it all go away. When all you want to do is listen to him talk passionately about his plans for the future. When you would sacrifice your shopping time just to cheer him up on the field. When a mention of his name makes you miss him so much. When all you want to do is staying up and taking care of him when he’s sick. When your face glows every time you meet him. When even the way he laughs and eats and sleeps fascinate you. When you realize you can finish each other’s sentences. When you can recognize his perfume from miles away. When you laugh when he laughs. When you love seeing the reflection of yourself in his eyes. When you can’t stop smiling every time people talk about the two of you. When you remember him in your prayer. When you feel that he’s the only one who can understand you. When everything that makes him happy will make you happy, no matter how hurtful it is inside. When you’re often torn between your own egocentricity and your feelings for him. When really you’re mad at him but all you want to do is cry on his shoulder. When you can’t help glancing at him every other second as you’re both in the car and he’s seriously watching the traffic. When you actually enjoy the moment when he’s teasing you eventhough you’re pissed. When you dreams of yourself being married to him with kids. When you want to be the woman who makes him coffee and puts on his tie every morning. When you’re seriously reconsidering the relocation because it means leaving him as you move to another country. When you find his boyish whining attitude is endearing. When you find his snoring endearing. When you have your own nickname for him. When every time his name pops up in your inbox you smile. When you gladly wipes his sweat as he changes your flat tire. When you find his singing entertaining eventhough he can’t carry a tune. When you forget when was the last time his name doesn’t cross your mind. When you can remember perfectly the sound of his funny laugh, his fake laugh, and his amused laugh. When he’s the only face you want to be on your 500 bucks Anya Hindmarch be-a-bag. When you would stay awake just to watch him sleep. When you’re seriously thinking of getting a tattoo of his name on your left. When he makes you happy and makes you cry at the same time. When you want him to always be your ‘imam’ when you’re praying. When you’re glad that you can be helpless sometimes because it means you can rely on his strong arms to help you. When being with him makes you want to be a better person. When everything could go wrong in the world and it’s okay, because he’s there, with you.

- as written on Ika Natassa's Tumblr.

Bold what you feel and lemme know if you post it later on. :)

Much love,

Congratulations!

For makes me cry over and over and over again!

Current Feeling

You.
At times I hate you so much. You’re the one I wish would just leave and get of out my life. You’ve caused me so much pain and suffering, but at the same time, I wish you were mine and no one elses. I miss you really bad.

(via @wordplaythingy) (via @blogsecret)

Bagaimanapun Saya Adalah Remaja Biasa

Sakit, betapa Anda tidak pernah membalas "miss you" saya, tapi dengan mudahnya mengatakan "kangen banget" kepada orang yang bahkan tidak pernah saya lihat wajahnya. Selama ini Anda anggap saya apa?

University of Indonesia, finally.

Accepted in UI, University of Indonesia, majoring in Pharmacy.
First time I cry like hell for an acceptance in university.
Have no idea what else to say.
Am still crying.

Proud of myself,

Waktu Gue Keterima UGM

Barusan gue baca ulang post-nya senior gue di aksel.. namanya ka Dwika Audiyananda, atau nama kerennya... Dwikjohn. Iya emang ga nyambung. Tapi begitulah adanya. Well, jadi tadi entah kenapa, tangan gue tergerak gitu aja buat ngeklik link blog-nya ka Dwikjohn di blog gue ini, dan... disitulah gue baca (untuk ketiga kalinya) post dia yang berjudul: "Dwikjohn's real come back Post". Disitu, dia cerita tentang perasaan dia waktu nungguin pengumuman SNMPTN tahun kemarin. Iya, Seleksi Nasional Masuk Perguruan Tinggi Negeri yang maha sakral itu emang telah berhasil mencampur-adukkan perasaan semua pesertanya yang lagi nungguin pengumuman. Lo bayangin dong, gue yang baca aja udah deg-degan setengah mati, gimana yang beneran ngalamin coba?!

Well, inti dari post ini bukan tentang post-nya ka Dwika. Yang mau gue ceritain adalah, tentang perasaan gue sendiri waktu dinyatakan keterima Ujian Tulis UGM. :)

Jadi... waktu itu tanggal 16 April 2010, pengumuman mestinya baru keluar jam 10 malem gitu, tapi gue udah deg-degan dari pagi aja dong! Mana lagi Ujian Praktek Fisika yang maha dahsyat lagi! Fyi, gue kebagian praktek sambungan RLC yang subhanallah sulitnya setengah mati, mana alatnya sempet rusak lagi! Tapi bersyukur juga sih, berkat praktek Fisika itu gue jadi agak melupakan pengumuman nanti malem. hahaha.

Anyway, selesai praktek itu jam 12. Gue langsung pulang berharap di rumah bisa istirahat dan tidur siang. Tapi mata gue ga bisa diajak damai. Beneran ga bisa merem! Pengaruh hormon adrenalin gue juga kali ya. Tapi alhamdulilah, setelah beberapa jam yang rasanya seperti ratusan abad, jam akhirnya menunjukkan pukul 16.30.. Dan disitulah gue, nongkrongin komputer, nyampah di Twitter sambil nungguin update anak-anak yang juga ikut UTUL. Soalnya, menurut pengalaman yang ikut PBS sih, pengumuman tuh udah bisa diakses dari habis maghrib. Hoooo sumpah bikin tambah deg-degan! Akhirnya untuk mereduksi deg-degan gue yang kian parah, gue chatting aja sm anak kelas 3 lain yang namanya ka Randy Julianto, sebut saja Ranjul, yang katanya bisa ngakses pengumuman UTUL lebih cepat dengan adanya link rahasia. Jadilah gue ngobrol sm dia. Gue paksa dia buat ngecek nomor-nomor lain (asal jangan nomor gue! Gila lo nekat banget!) Tapi kata Ranjul, tunggu sampe jam lima! Dan disitulah jantung gue rasanya mau copot nungguin setengah jam berlalu.... yang rasanya kayak 500 abad! lebay parah

Terus.... akhirnya jam 5.... Tapi kata Ranjul beluuumm.. Sabar dulu....

Ealaaaaaahhhh! Sabar gimana toh mas?! Gue udah mau silet nadi aja tuh saking ga sabarannya! Sampai akhirnya.... ada temen gue anak Tangsel, namanya ka Fiski, yang ngetwit kurang lebih begini, "Eh itu serius tuh pengumuman UTUL udah keluar?!!!!"

Woh langsung aja dong gue retweet! "Kata siapa kak?!!!" Terus dia bales... "Cek di link ini deh: ..." Gue klik kan tuh link-nya... Dan bener aja lho saudara-saudara, di atasnya ada tulisan Hasil Seleksi Final Program UTUL, dengan tampilan seperti ini:



Waktu itu jam 5.15 pm kalo ga salah... Di rumah cuma ada gue sendirian, nyokap lagi pengajian, bokap masih di kantor, dan adek gue lagi maen entah kemana. Gue dilema antara masukin nomor peserta atau ngga. Tapi entah refleks entah apa, akhirnya, gue pasrah masukin nomor peserta yang emang udah gue hafal luar kepala: 1100200277.

Dan habis gue masukin... Loadingnya cepet banget dong mameeeeeenn! Gue sampe ga sempet napas! Tapi begitu ngeliat hasilnya.... Gue yakin saat itu gue beneran lupa gimana caranya napas! Gue cuma bengong. Terus respon kedua gue...

Jejingkrakan di sofa sambil teriak-teriak "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...." kayak orang gila. Dan gue langsung ngetwit ke ka Fiski yang telah berjasa besar ngasih link sakral itu ke gue. "Ka Fiskiiiiiiiiii aku keterima Farmasi UGM! Pilihan pertama ka! ALHAMDULILAH!!!" tapi reply dia cuma, "Yah, jadi ga ngambil ITB dong?" sungguh respon yang ga asik. --"

Oke, terus respon ketiga gue, nanyain ke Ranjul (takutnya aja link dari ka Fiski itu bohongan), "Ran, UTUL udah keluar ya Ran? Cekin dong nomor gue, 1100200277." Terus beberapa detik kemudian dia bales, "Aduh Put... Ga enak nih gue ngomongnya." Gue cuma bisa melongo kayak orang bego. Mampus deh. Kalo yang tadi emang bener cuma bohongan gimana dong? Hopeless lah gue. Tapi terus si Randy typing lagi, "SELAMET YA PUUUUTTT!!!! FARMASI LOOOOHHH!" dan dia langsung ngirim link-nya ke wall fb gue, jadi semua orang bisa liat.

Anjrrriiiiiiiiittt kampret banget tuh si Ranjul! dia gatau apa gue udah mau nangis darah gitu yaaa! Dan sumpah dia norak banget sampe ngirim link-nya segala ke wall fb gue!

hahahaha tapi thanks a lot deh buat Ranjul yang udah menyemangati gue di saat-saat terakhir!
Anyway, Ranjul itu udah keterima Tek.Industri tapi lewat PBS... :)
Oh ya, see the status below the wall post? yes, I break up. :P

Terus, beberapa menit kemudian, habis gue capek lompat-lompat di sofa kayak orang gila, nyokap akhirnya pulang.... Gue spontan teriak-teriak, "MAMAAAA!!! KAKA KETERIMA FARMASI UGM!!!!"

Reaksi nyokap: bengong. Dia langsung ngehampirin meja komputer. Liat tulisan yang tertera disitu. Gue tanya dia, "Kok ga heboh sih mah? Lulus loh ini! Pilihan pertama!" Tapi dia cuma diem beberapa saat, terus jawab, "Ka... Jogja kan jauh....." dengan muka super melas.

GUBRAK!!!

Jadi ya begitulah... Nyokap langsung telpon Bokap dengan muka galau gitu karena ga rela kalo gue harus kuliah jauh-jauh di Jogja. Tapi beberapa hari kemudian, setelah konsultasi dengan banyak orang, ya dia akhirnya yakin kalo UGM itu emang yang terbaik buat gue. Alhamdulilah... Ga kebayang aja kan ya kalo harus ngelepas UGM? Jalur UTUL yang murah lagi! hehe :)

Lantas registrasi lah kita tanggal 23-nya. Ngukur jaket almamater, dikasih undangan untuk upacara penerimaan, disambut sama senior-senior farmasi... Ah! seneng banget pokoknya! Err.. tapi sebenernya belum begitu lengkap sih kebahagiaan gue. Since my very best brother was failed on the test. I won't mention the name anyway. Dia milih FK-UGM, yang emang standarnya tinggi seampun-ampun. Dan dia gagal. Gue tau banget dia sangat sangat sangat pengen masuk FK-UGM. Ga kayak gue yang meskipun udah keterima juga masih bingung mau ngambil apa ngga. --> ga bersyukur banget

Dia sempet down gitu... Masalahnya, dua sahabat dia yg lain, yaitu gue dan Tio, keterima UGM, sedangkan dia ngga. Tio keterima Teknik Elektro anwyay. Jadi ceritanya, sehari sebelum sebelum pelaksanaan UTUL tuh kita bertiga sempet sleepover di rumah dia gitu, buat belajar bareng, share our feelings, yaaa sort of those things lah. (tau ngga? para cowok itu sampe nangis pas curhat! wohohoho buka aib xP) Jadi emang kebayang sih sakitnya, dua temen seperjuangan dia keterima sedangkan dia sendiri ngga. Hurtful.

Tapi sekarang dia tetep berjuang buat UMB, USM Terpusat, dan SNMPTN. Yaaahhh.. kayak yang ka Dwika bilang di post-nya, dia udah gagal BERKALI-KALI di segala macem seleksi penerimaan (fyi, ka Dwika juga milih FK dimana-mana), tapi ternyata dia bisa lolos di Ujian Seleksi yang paling akhir, yaitu SNMPTN. Well, jadi intinya semua ini cuma masalah waktu, kan? :)

Yah, mari kita doakan semoga sahabat gue itu bisa keterima di Fakultas Kedokteran yang dia inginkan. Amin...

Anwyay, kemaren gue udah nyari kosan loh di Jogja. Dapet di daerah Pogung Baru. Untuk para mahasiswa baru UGM yang baru registrasi juga, mungkin ada yang dapet kosan di daerah yang sama? hehehe, btw, itu daerah elit looohhh... :p *pamer*

Hm. Itu aja kali ya... Makasih banyak buat ka Dwika yang udah ngasih inspirasi buat nulis ini. Dan untuk semua siswa kelas 12 yang masih berjuang untuk mendapatkan tempat di PTN ataupun PTS ternama, ayoo semangat! Percaya deh, ini cuma masalah waktu kok! Yang penting sabar dan jangan patah semangat! :D

Oh ya, ada quote dari ka Fiski yang gue suka banget, dia tweet waktu tanggal 15 April kalo ga salah, waktu pengumuman USM daerah yang menyatakan kalo ka Fiski keterima FTTM ITB. Gini quote-nya:
"Hari ini gue yang iri sama kesuksesan kalian, tapi besok-besok... kalian yang bakal iri atas kesuksesan gue! HAHAHAHAAHA!"
--> beneran ada HAHAHA-nya loh. Well, sounds so snooty, ya? Tapi beneran deh, bikin semangat banget. :)

Campur aduk,

Hi!

Alhamdulillah...
I'm accepted in Gadjah Mada University, majoring in Pharmacy.
Thanks for every pray you give to me. :)

Huge Sorry

This is going to be my first post in 2010, and maybe also become the last post for like... 6 months ahead.
You know, I'm in my senior year and it's so hard to update stuff here, but I do update a lot on Twitter. LOL!
Hem.. There will be a final exam on March, and there will come soooo many selection test for universities afterward.
So, I am really trying to focus on it and leave those unimportant things behind. For the sake of my future, seriously!

So, here I wanna say HUGE sorry not to update this blog anymore, but thanks for the feedbacks anyways! keep em coming guys! :D

Ah....
I promise this won't be a goodbye. I will be back! *cross my heart*
And someday, when you open this blog and find me update, I swear, it's gonna mean that I have been a college student. :)

*give me your Amen pleaaaasseeee!! HAHA

Much love,
Putri

YAY I'M BACK!!!

Howdyyyyy everyone!
Here's my smile for everyone who reads this post! tee-hee ;) A coquettish smile, I know. :p

So, what's up? It's been 2 months since my last post, right? What do i miss? nothing? oh, i see... you guys are moving to twitter, eh? LOL! Got you, buddies! Hahaha. Well, as a matter of fact, i am kinda addicted to twitter too. But no, I'm not moving. I still belong to this Princess Diary. ;) But alright, I can't hide the fact that i'm such an active in Twitter. :p

Ah, don't blame me for that, pals! Twitter is hundred times more fun than blogger, if i should say honestly. We can update everytime we want without any guilty feeling of "will people like my tweet?" or "will people gimme comment for this tweet?" hahahah seriously, it's a great invention of internet world! So, pardon me if I'm getting so much used to that than this 'old-but-lovely' friend of mine. :) Okay, I have neglected this one too much, I know. -,-

Aaaahh by the way, how's life going on your side, fellas?
Mine is going great. Hm... would be too long if I dictate it all, so how about making a list? (as always)

1. I have a new boyfriend. ;D His name is Restu, and he's so sweet, and he's so cute, also a smarty one, and he's so... oh okay. lets move on!

2. I'm going to college next year. Which means i'll be so fu*king busy on the next months. Yeah, just pray for me, fellas. I'm keeping my eyes on Indonesia University and Gadjah Mada University. hehe, gimme Amen, okay? :)

3. I will be 16 on the next January! oh yeah, I'm getting older, I know. But I always love birthday! presents, you know? hehehe ;D

4. Does any of you realize, that this month is..........

THE FIRST ANNIVERSARY FOR MY PRINCESS DIARY!!!

Aaaahhh thanks a bunch for every of you who has following me among these years and gimme such sweet comments for every my posts! And also for those who has give me sort of awards to be proud of. oooohhh, thanks a lot, buddy! I won't be as huge as this without you guys my beloved readers. Oh man, come on, 156 followers is such a huuuuuuuge number! :--D
Thanks a lot, once again. :")

5. I went to Jogjakarta last two weeks. Had four blast days there, and buy lot of things in Malioboro Street. hihi ;) Here I share some pics for you. In-joy, pals! :D

*My lovely grandma. She got stroke. :(

*a great Artisan Batiks I saw in Mirota.

*big family of Woesthon's. :) (some of them was still inside the house)

*Taman Sari. Taken by me.

--> Also doing a kopdar with my blog fella, Indita Setyorini. Took some photos as well, but strangely, I can't find where the file is. huhu, too bad ya ndi :((

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Well, that's all. Have so much stories to tell but lil bit too late to update. Expired already! HAHA

Will update later then. Soon, i hope. :)

xoxo,

Insecure

Have you ever felt so insecure about yourself? Like, whatever you do, you just don’t feel comfortable about it?

Well, I have, and as matter of fact, I still do. Everytime I finish on something, I always think “Is that okay? Will people think it’s okay?”. Everytime I go out, I always look at other people’s eyes. Are they staring at me with pondering looks? Do I fit perfectly among my groups? And despite all the bitchiness I wrote here on my blog about how I don’t care with people’s words, I’m not that serious. I do still care. And you’ll never hear me talking that bold in real life. You would see me as a complete introverts when you meet me for the first time. I only get loud when I’m surrounded by those I knew and I feel comfortable to be, and that’s a very rare thing to see.

Feeling insecure isn’t good. It makes you always want to appear right in front of other people. It makes you put thick mask or makeups on your faces so that they can accept you. It makes you lie about yourself to people, putting all your natural you behind.

If I look back to know where this insecure feelings come from, I guess it must’ve been my childhood. I was completely different (and still am) at that time. And being different among those ‘intolerant’ environment just made it worst. I struggled my way to be ‘acceptable’. But as I said before, it’s all about makeups. It makes you feel good, but in the end, you have no choice but to clean it up, leaving your natural look uncovered.

And now, I’m being totally confused. I met many different people these years. How do I know which mask I should put on so that I’ll get a warm welcome? What if I took the wrong one? What if, even with the right one, it still didn’t feel right? If I didn’t feel good wearing those masks, why should I bother to?

I remembered reading an entry by Fanny couple of days ago. She didn’t pretty much like the way she had changed right now. I asked myself, how about me? Will I still be able to look back to see whether I liked my new me? I’ve been putting all these masks for like, all my life. And to decide which ‘me’ I really like is almost impossible, as right at this moment, I have forgotten who I used to be and who I really am.

I wonder what people (and I mean all people I know) would think if they know the man behind these makeups. Will I still get a place among them? Hmm.. a question which is hard to answer. More like scientific quest where the answer will always be given after you perform the experiment.

So, in regards of stepping out of these masks one by one, I wrote this entry with a hope that someday I could show my real me.

--Reblogged from Aulia Tegar

Sorry for no updates.. :(

Sorry for not posting anything. I've been so busy these days, and, well, it's just hard to make some long updates here.

But you could follow my twitter if you really wanna know me. hehehe. Follow me on here.

Ah! And I've made a tumblr too! hahaha :D
Have been soooo addicted with it! It's sooo simple and I just love it! You guys should try it too! :)

But so sorry--much sorry, I couldn't share the url here. It's way too private that it even only has 4 followers; and they're my closest friends. :)

Thanks anyway for keep following my blog and click my link on your dashboard. Thank you. Really, thank you so much! I really really do appreciate it. :D

You're all best! I love you. :)

xoxo,

Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (Part II)

Howdy all! :D

Wow, it's been a little while since the last post, right? Well, i've been overwhelmed by the fasting moments. Not eat and not drink for about 14 hours really makes me suffer. Drooped a lot. My tummy can't even stop grumbling for all day! And the thirsty throat too! Oh God... could you just imagine that?

So, remember my last post about Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (part I)? Wow, i really didn't think that it would be such a great post. All of you came and give me such sweet responses. That flatters me a lot, you know? hahaha :D

but thanks anyway for coming and giving me comments. it means everything, ladies! haha :)

Oh well guys, maybe now I should continue the first part about Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For, yeah, five stuff more, right? hmm, i already have some items here in my head. sooo, just scroll down and enjoy this, people! :D

Ten Fashion Stuff to Die For (pt. II)

6. Doctor Martens Bootsyyy

taken from Kak Caroline's blog, and yes, i adore her a lot!

oooohh myyyy the pinky one! am drooling! xP

7. Roberto Cavalli's dresses

seriously, I'm speechless.

8. Fringe Bootsyyyyy

this one is my fave! droooooling over it! LOL xD

9. Manolo Blahnik's shoes

as always, the last one is my fave! oh myyy army rocks! hahaha

10. Oh wow! Here comes the last stuff. Hahaha. Well, of course last but not least, even this one (if I must say) is the most crucial thing from all the point! hoho :D Well, e-ehmm *clearing my throat* ( LOL ) So, the last to-die-for fashion stuff is... (drumroll, please :P): Your own outfit, guys. What you wear, and you're comfort with it: that's a very to-die-for fashion stuff. It's unlimited, it's only yours. It derives from your own head, right? The combination of color, the mix-match, it's all just cannot be copied by others. They may steal your style, but no-no, they cannot steal what's on your head. Ha! Ah, and the most important thing is, you're comfort with it.

"Guys, you may look fabulous, stunning, gorgeous or else, but if you're not comfort with what you wear, well, you lose the point then." :)

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Oh-kaaayy! Well done! It's finished already! yay yay yay! hahahaha this is such a fashion week for my blog, eh? LOL.

Anyway, thanks a bunch for read this post, people! I love yoooooou! Please drop some comments too, okay? :P

So, I gotta go now. This is Putri over and out.

Cheerio, folks! :D

xoxo,

P.S. pictures taken from: style.com (Cavalli), deviantart.com (Doc Marts), Photobucket.com (Blanhik) , and Shopstyle.com (fringe boots). Thanks for all! :)