Torn Into Pieces

Well, I just thought that I will off of this blogging thingy, but then I thought again... hey! why should I off?!

lol. Stupidity.

Anyways, I just found a very beautiful quote from Breaking Dawn. And well, it makes me melting...

Edward: "Do you want me to sing to you? I'll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away."

Yeah. Edward Cullen. And also, Muhammad Fauzi—my ex—ever said the same thing just like Edward did.

That was a great night, for sure. He made me slept in peace. Terribly comfy. Till it felt like I just don't wanna wake up anymore. He sang a beautiful lullaby for me all night long. Only for me.

Well, great, uh? So contrast with my condition nowadays. Yep. You're right! Nightmares every night!

lol.

*

Well then, goes for another Quote:

"Do you ever think that your life might be easier if you weren't in love with me?" — Edward Cullen

and if my ex is the one who asks this, I'd love to answer, "Yes, certainly. You really made me suffer."

lol. I'm torn into pieces!

(look at how pathetic my face is!)

..

Fin

Last night. Is the worst night of my life.

All the problems started when I tried to scold on him. Rude and discourteous. And for the first time of our relationship, he scolded me back. I was shocked.

Hence we fought. Immensely.

Till at last I asked him. “Kamu mau aku yang putusin atau kita ngomong putus bareng?”

I barely even think before I said that sacred word. Putus. 

So he answered me, curtly, “Silahkan.” One word. One sword. 

I was deadly hurt. No—I am deadly hurt.

And so we’re split up. End it all up. 

Fin.

At first I couldn’t believe it. I shrugged, “This must be a joke!”, so I called him. 
“Tadi beneran ya?”

“Yaaaa….” –he tried to give me his sweetest tone, but more sounded like a teaser tone. Not even tempting me.

We’re both quite. 

“Euh… Okay then. Bye.” –I said.

I gazed on my phone. “So this is real.”—I murmured.

You know what? It’s like I was petrified that time. Stupefied for about a whole minute.

Then I realize something, whispered to myself, “Why can’t I cry?”

I know what the answer is…

The wound is too deep. You know, if you are falling from a bicycle, then your knee hit a big rock, and so the blood is gushing from your opened skin, you will feel like you’re not there. Somewhere outside your real body. You are being another people who seeing a boy with the wounded knee. Whereas the boy is you yourself.

So was I that time.

I was being insensible. Too hurt to be felt.

My chest was like tightened by a studded belt.
“I need some air.”—I begged. It was really hard to breathe.

After few seconds I did not breathe, nor winked (it’s true, I’m not lying), I took my cell phone from the desk, and also the headphone. I thought, “Maybe hear some song would relax me off.”
Therefore I brought my senseless finger to Mp3 menu. Played it. 

Secondhand Serenade—Your Call

Lady Gaga—Poker Face

Bon Jovi—Lost Highway

…

I listened gently. “Everything’s gonna be okay, Put. This is not as bad as you might think.”—I kept convincing myself.

I started smiling. 

Till the Random Shuffle setting of my phone brought me to a song. A song which would break my entire defense.

Taylor Swift—Breathe
(I enjoyed the guitar played..)

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.

“Oh my God! This is so true!”—I yelled on my heart.
Yeah, I never even thought it’s gonna end this way.

People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.

Dude, don’t you know I changed my mind now?! Oh my God! What in Earth I was thinking of that time!!! 

But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time.

Oh my God! It couldn’t be worse! This is deadly true!

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.

I don’t wanna see ending like this. I really don’t want to. (I started crying).

Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,
Now I don’t know what to be without you around.

I don’t know. I don’t have any idea what I would be after you left me this way!!!!

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.

Never, dude, you thought it’s easy for me, but it’s NOT!

Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

Not a clean break. So not. And yeah, who will save me now? Nobody!

You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

…….

And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

I can’t breathe without you. Sounds so drama queen, but it’s scarily true, my friend. I forgot how to breathe.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.

I don’t wanna see you hurt. But this mouth destroys everything! You wouldn’t even forgive me, would you?

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.

I always want to protect you.

But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn’t work out,

Yeah. I’m just an ordinary people. Just like you. Sometimes things didn’t work like I wanted it to.

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

I sobbed.

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

I sobbed.

It’s two a.m.

It’s 11 p.m.

Feelin' like I just lost a friend.

I really lost a friend. A best friend.

Hope you know it’s not easy,

I really hope you know.

Easy for me.

Never easy for me.

It’s two a.m.
Feelin’ like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain’t easy,
Easy for me.

I sobbed louder.

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

No one lays on my side now. No one.

Ohhh

Aaarrghhh!!

I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

I HAVE TO BREATHE!

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry....

I really do sorry…….

"Love you."

Last night, I made a phone call to my ex. We chat chat chat and chat till drop on the midnight. I really do miss him, and he said he does either.

Oh, that’s just sweet how our feelings are still connecting each other. :)

And anyway, on the last conversation before we went sleep that night, I spontaneously thought that I must express my feeling in the way I could. Right on that moment. (Well, I was just afraid if I will lose him again). So, right away before he could say anything, I whispered to him, “Love you.”

Oh My Gosh! Do you know readers, what’s on my thought that time was, that he must be hating me madly when I was saying that thing. You know, you know, I’m the one who split-up the relationship between us! So it's proper if I thought a thing like that.

But do you know what?! Oh I couldn't believe this! He said the same thing right on the time I said so! He also said, “Love you.” There’s no any differences except I whispered it, while he saying it piercingly. The second when we saying it were just right the same! Yeah, I know that’s only two simple words, but inside, deep down in our hearts, we both knew that the word "love" we said was means so deep. No, not sayang, but more refer to cinta. Hehe.. :")

Yeah well, I love you honey. ;)

P.S. I guess it just needs some times until we could back to the circumstances like the prior time behind. well, I hope. :p

P.P.S You know, I’m doing a hiatus. Sorry for long time not post anything. Just there for replying comments and blog walk. I don’t know what I should post indeed. So sorry, guys. Heart you all.

Best Regard,

Princess Diary

I really do miss writing. Very much.

I don’t know why, but nowadays, it is more looks like that my blog is the place where I spread my shallow story instead of a real “Princess Diary”. I was just post those unimportant stuffs of fashion, those unworthy things to read, those uninteresting events of mine, and all of those miserable things of my relationship—which is already ended just tonight.

So now, I’ll start to make a worthy post. I’ll talk about anything’s precious to read by you—at least for me. Hehe. Well, I really do wanna try, guys. :)

…

Talking about last night I spent with my—ehm—ex-boyfriend, that’s such a great night, absolutely.

We went to a café, where we were first made in into a deeper relationship about 9 months ago, as I’ve said on the last last post.

He picked me up from my house on about 7.30pm, he greeted my mommy, and she said, “Take care of her ya ji, and have fun chickadee!” I laughed, and so did him. “O-Kay mom, see ya!”, then we left. Haha. :D

At first, we were both—errr…. Awkward. Because, yeah, we both knew that we’re gonna ended up our relationship that night.

But I decided not to take care of it, and, well, I tried just to let the night be the most awful night of our life—at least for our together life, yeah, because hey, it was (possibly) the last night we could spend together.

We ordered two green tea and two chicken basket (one of the menu on the café), and we talked all night. Hahaha, no, it’s just my secret desire—to have a fully night with him and talked all night about everything with him, but yeah, dreams will always be dreams, guys. LOL. But we did talk about everything indeed. We talked about… eerrrr…. oh, okay, I can’t remember anything of our talks last night. Hehe, blame me as you want to, readers, you really may, but it was not my fault if I have memory just like a goldfish. Pardonne moi, honeydude… haha.

Well, after that moment on the café, we went to a nowhere place. I mean, we just went around the city. No certain direction. Hahaha. Ah ya, have I told you that he drove motorcycle that night? O-Kay, I thought I haven’t talk about it. So now you know ya. Besides, it was rain that time. Not kinda eastern downpour though, just a drizzle. Yeah, I know, that’s sweet. :)

Hmm, well, couple of times later, we went back home. He said—when we’re still on the motorcycle, “I will miss everything on you.”

“I will do either, honey.” I put my earnest smile on my face, just to make he smiles too, instead of glum like that. 

He whispered, and he smiled—as what I wished before, “I’ll never forget every moment we had together, sayang. I love you too much.” (in Indonesia, the word “love” he said refer to “sayang” instead of “cinta”).

 I couldn’t counter his sentence. Just hush. Then a cold silence came bothered our mind. Very cold. But not caused of the drizzle above us, it’s because we both quite—a scary silence. We didn’t know what else to say in our last time. An invisible key lock my mouth down. So did his mouth. Locked.

What could I say to make this coldness melt down?!

Well, okay okay, I'd say everything on my head, and oh, unluckily, that was such a stupid thing: “Eng… it is so cold here, isn’t it?”

For God’s sake! I talked about the weather on our last time! What would he think of me?!

“Yeah, cold.” He mumbled.

"Shit!" I shout in my heart. But then—I couldn’t remember exactly what else happened after, but yeah, I start to think that he was hugging me that time. I don’t know the exact story was…

An unrestrained misery came overwhelmed us. There’s sorrow on his face, I know. But he tried very hard to show me the firmness instead of sorrow. I was really touched.

Then I was smiling; once more, just to see him replied my smile... so I could be tranquil before I went sleep. 

Then he said goodbye. With that gorgeous smile which always I dream of.

*

Oh okay, I’ve made you bored till dead, haven’t I? -,-

9 month has gone...

Our conversation last night before we went sleep

Me: What happened with you last afternoon?

Him: Me? Nothing.

Me: I don't think so. You look different.

Him: Well, yeah. I was a lil bit upset when I came to your class but you seem didn’t interested at all.

Me: It is so not true, be! Didn’t you see my expression when you left me that way? I hate you!

Him: …

Me: Ah, really not funny how our minds didn’t connect each other anymore ya, be.

Him: Okay, I really do apologize… Don't say a thing like that!  

Then I made a call to him.

~

Well ya, this is 22nd February, and, today is our 9th month anniversary! 

But, oh how poor we are, it seems like we’re gonna end up our relationship today. I think both me and him couldn’t be understand and respect each other anymore.

You know, it was really sucks for me, daghling. So please do understand my last decision—this irresponsible decision, I know.

I promise we will be a best friend afterward. I keep holding on my promise. :)

xoxo. 

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone! :D

my first valentine with him! yay!

hahaha.

about that break? forget it. i've changed my mind. he got me back. haha. i'm just love him too much. ;p

thanks for all of you who had cheer me up! that's really sweet!

and for everyone, HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!

love you all pals. muah!

Putri

break

yeah. break.

my relationship with him is just break down for awhile. just for one month, actually. i am the one who offer him to, well at first he don't want to, but at last yea we make a deal. just for one month, no contact, no call, no message, no email, no greets in the school... yeah, just look like an enemy. haha. silly!

well, i just need some moments, to think hardly, is this relationship are just precious enough to be defended? hmm... i dont know. just let me thinking in this one month. 

and i really am sure you can receive it sincerely, my dear. just find another girl out there! i really dont mind. :)

PS: here goes the 'it' anonymous again... pfffhhh.... (couldn't hold out my laugh!)

the date?

hmm... the date is awfully fun. but, yeah, there was not a happy ending. sigh...

well i think my outfit doesn't stunning at all. hell yeah. i refer to use T-shirt than that. that's my mother's choice.

but i wore sneakers although. ;p

and this is the necklace i wore. 

do you love it? ;)

Birthdaaaayyyy!!!

(hey, that's not my cakes! i grabbed it from google. so for you who required to be the owner of this cake, i'm so sorry for taking it without any permission :) )

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday to meeeee!!!!

yaaaayyy!!!! xD

finally.... i am turning fifteen!! My Sweet Fifteen!! hahahaha.. xD

many things happened in this fifteen years. and i really really should thanks to God for gave me this 15 years i lived was veeeery wonderful!

with my lovely family around; mah, pah, arga. you are such a veeeery best partner to live with! ;) really thanks for the delicious cake, mom. and those wish-something-before-blowing-candles-in-my-dark-room tradition. hehehe. ;p that's very nice! (so regret for not taking the photos before i ate them! hahaha, greedy!)

and my friends; junior high, senior high, elementary (netha i love you!), fake friends (maksudnya yg di dunia maya gituu).. My Gosh, really, you guys are rock! ahaha. :D thanks for being my friends and support me on all the way i am. i really appreciate you guys, gorgeous friends ever! netha, rizqi, ochan, dea, irfan, angga, windy and deska (kita emang 25 Januari yg paling oke! xD ), mada, indra, ridho, alan (hey! mestinya gue ga kena sebor yaa kemaren itu!),  reason, kanchan, chikita (aduh jauh2 dari Bandung masih inget aja sm ulang tahunputri. ;p), rainy, safa, papoy and nita (sumpah ye gara2 lu berdua manggil2 dah nih gue jadi basah kuyup pulang ke rumah!), windy sbi-2, jara, nida, zizie (kenalan di fb), uwii, tio (apaan tuh sms " ehmm.. ^^ " doang?!) adelin, Muhammad Luthfi (so sorry honey, lupa naro!!!), temen2 di friendster and facebook yang sebenernya gue ga kenal tapi ngucapin karna ada remindernya (nevertheless, thank you guys), ka devsy (hihi, makasih yaa udah sering mampir ke blog ini ;)), dan anak-anak aksel ga tau diri yg ga ada capenyaaa nagihin gue traktiran bigoy dari semenjak H-9. dasar kaliaaann!! dan buat semuaa yg kemaren udah ngucapin tapi sekarang ga ngucapin lagi. aduh dasar kalian, gue ultah nih bukan kemaren tauu! hahahaha. but it's okay anyway, i love you all guys! :'D

and not forget, my best boyfriend ever; well, hmmm... i am speechless. mau ngomong apa yah? hehehe. bingung. so, yeah, i'll start writing what's on my head. Dear, many things happened to us, and i do really thank God for gave me you on my side. it's a very great pleasure to get you near me. i love you... ;) tapi kenapa coba kamu smsnya baru jam setengah 8?! aku lahir jam stengah 6 tauuu!! dasar keboooo!! :(

and, last but not least, my Dear God; there's nothing i could say to You, except thanks thanks thanks thanks and thanks... thanks for everything, everything, and really everything you gave. thanks for listening my pray, thanks for understanding my madness, and thanks for give me strength on every problems i had... i do very love You, my Dear God. :')

well, that's all.

and thank you very very much for you who had read my blog and post that gorgeous comments! thank you thank you thank you..... i love you all! :D

so, enjoy your day guys. i'm gonna have a date with my boyfriend. hehehe. ;)

cheerio, you all!

the pics of FoV (for detail, next time oke, i'm very tired now. :p )

1.

1. this's the condition after we walked for 14 km!! see how strong we were!! hahaha. :D oia, ini di sumber mata air gitu istilahnya.. :)

2.

2. this's just another pond. wew, we reached this place after walked through the ricefield, and soooo slippery soil around! it's just cool! see me and alfa. i'm on the grey shirt. :)

3.

3. without me there. but that's the pic i taken by. they're all cute! :)

4.

4. the first time arrived, langsung maen pokeeeerr!! huahahah. x)

5.

5. me and windy. windy looks cute, and my hair seems like not mine, hahah

6.

6. that's my boy on the brown shirt. :D

7.

7. woaa!! look at the backgrooounndd!! x) ini di puncak bukit lho, bisa dibilang.

8.

8. the first time arrived... directly said, "woaaaaa......" udik beneeerr!!!

9.

9. just narsist. hehehe. but cute, anyhow. :p

10.

10. windy, me, apit. ooohhhh so coooooll don't you knoooww?!! cool us, cool the temperature also! weksweks. :p

male goat comic

oke, itu maksudnya komik kambing jantan. muahahaha. maaf ye bang dikung akika asal translate gicung! huehe. :p (hoh! kenapa gue jadi bergaya banci gini!? aduh bok yey, akika kan udah cewe, ngapain jadi banci lagi gicu lho yeyy!! hahahaa)

well....

kenapa gue ngomongin komik KJ ini?? ya karena gue pengen!! hehehe. geje? memang itulah aku! haha. (btw gue jadi inget iklan obat pusing! yang ini lho, "aku tau! kemarin, aku juga flu.") well, sebenernya ga nyambung juga sih yah.. dan, hmm, itu iklan obat pusing bukan sih? lupa! ah sudahlah! kenapa jadi melenceng gini sih? kembali ke our topic.

yak! kmaren sore, gue ke tisera, trus gue temukanlah engkau, wahai komik male goat pujaanku!!! wih, sumpah gue kaget dan terharu abis! gue sampe nangis berderai-derai di rak dimana buku itu dipajang! gue sujud syukur, dan melantunkan puja-puji kepada Tuhan Yang Maha Esa.

....

oke, itu bohong. gue ga selebay itu, pemirsa. gue cuma kaget. bengong. sambil ngomong, "widih!" karena gue pikir, Serang, kota terpencil nan terkutuk ini, adalah kota yang sangat ketinggalan jaman! bahkan mungkin lebih terbelakang dibanding Ethiopia. asal kalian tau, di Serang ini, ga ada bioskop bok!!! kaget? iya, gue juga. pengen pingsan? silahkan, tapi cari bantal dulu biar pala lo ga benjol. mau mati? jangan, kalian belum nikah dan punya anak. bertahanlah, matinya nanti aja kalo kalian uda nikah dan punya anak banyak. oh, ato kalian mau tanya sama ibu kalian tentang kebenaran berita bahwa di Serang ga ada bioskop? yaudah, sok aja. tapi jangan, jangan cekek ibu kalian sambil bilang, "bohong! ibu bohong!!! ibu bohong padakuuuuu.....", karena di Serang memang ga ada bioskop sama sekali. ibu kalian tidak bohong. ibumu tidak akan pernah bohong, kawan. memang, kota tempat tinggal saya ini sungguh, sungguh naas...

... *ngais-ngais tanah*

stop! soal kota Serang kota kelahiran gue yang naujubilahgagawolnya ini, bakal gue ceritakan lain kali aja, in a whole post. sekarang, lihatlah judulnya di atas!!! kita tidak sedang membicarakan kota naujubilahgagawolnya itu pemirsah! kita sedang membicarakan komik kambing jantan!!!! uooohh!!

eh, sampe mana kita tadi? oh iya, sampe bagian gue kaget karena gue bisa menemukan komik KJ di Serang yah? nah, itu ga penting. yang jelas, gue mau ngereview ni komik. oke oke? oke dong.

yap! let's see d picture....

....

err,, ada apa dengan mbah gugel? gue ga bisa menemukan gambar covernya meeenn!!

ah sudahlah. mungkin kalian bisa lihat disini aja yah. cari-cari aja gitu postingannya bang dika yang ngebahas komiknya. okeoke?

well, soal komiknya?

satu yang pasti! menghibur banget! gue sendiri over all suka. gambarnya lucu, lebaynya oke, kata2nya juga ngebanyol abis!! ya gue suka lah pokoknya. tapiiiiii.... nah, ada tapinya nih!

tapi, gue pusing bacanya! soalnya:

1. tangan gue jadi item2 gitu. kenapa sih ga ngambil konsep komik cherry yang tintanya warna biru? jadi ga item2 ke tangan. kan lebih oke tuh bang. :D

2. tulisannya itu loh. sori, tapi tulisannya agak blur ya bang? dan banyak yang terlalu kecil juga. trus banyak yang merepet ke tengah2 halaman, jadi gue agak susah payah buat bacanya. hehehe. after all, banyolannya kocak! :D

3. gambar dikanya berubah2 ih tiap halaman! bang dika jadi bunglon tah? :p

4. kenapa harus bersambuuuuuuuunggg?!!!!!!!! huweeeeeeee........... kalian semua jahat, kawan! kalian semua telah mengkhianatikuuu!! aku telah membayar 33.000 dan ternyata ceritanya bersambuuuung??!!! hueeeeeeee....... x'(

5. gambar dio di bagian akhirnya ga jelas. hehehehe .. :p

at all, gue suka banget kok!

bravo buat Dio Rudiman yang baru lulus SMA dan gambarnya udah sekeren itu!! dan blog lo juga bagus bro! seru!! hahaha.. keep blogging! lumayan gue baca komik strip gratis tiap hari! hehehe. cheers! :D

by the way, uji udah pulang nih. asiiikk... hihi. miss you hun... smooch.

it's 10 pm

i just watched a movie. a very heartwarming movie. My Girl and I.

for candies and sugar! this movie is really touching! euuuhh... i was cry for 3 times during it played. pfthhh... i'm melted.

well well, this is a-must-see korean film ever deh! sumpah bagus banget... ga akan nyesel!! dijamin!! (ups jiwa iklan keluar nih... :p )

anyway, my hun udah contact tuh tadi magrib... ternyata emang ada kesalahan teknis disana. hehe, semua udah oke sekarang! tinggal shalat, lalu tidur deh. hahaha. what a life! :)

oia , ada beberapa quote dari my girl and I nih.. :)

Su-eun (in the car on the way to the pier): "My birthday...It's a week before yours. Since I was born first, I waited alone in a world without you. In the future, I'll wait for you a long, long time. Take your time. Stay all you like."

Su-ho: "As long as I've been living, there's never been a day without you. And there never will be."

Su-Ho: "I've decided. Every time I laugh, cry, and live, it will be only for you."

Su-eun: "You lie sleeping through the long summer days, the long winter nights. In a hundred years, I will lie next to you. Please wait in peace until that day."

Su-uen: As your grandfather said.."only the body dies, not the mind..."

:)

i'm trying to...

1. let him go from accel. luthfi.

gosh! lut...you make me cry for many times! (sigh...) i couldn't believe this lut. i couldn't and wouldn't ever believe that you are really wanna go. you are really wanna leave us. you are really wanna leave us from our class. accel...

hmm well, ok, i just wanna say... u may pals, and u really may to think that i'm too over on face this situation. or we can say... lebay. yeah, it's true that sometimes i was lebay, but not for now. you're wrong, buddy. i'm not over of being like this. i'm not lebay.

well i'm sure--that i'm willing to cut my ears if you'll not, you'll gonna be like me if you're in my position right now. luthfi is my very bestfriend. even if we just met for 6 months.. i love him... errr guys.. please stop to make any gossip ya! love is NOT DEFINITELY cinta. love can be 'sayang', 'suka', etc etc etc. well, yea, i really love luthfi. (so, luthfi, if u read this post, please don't think yang aneh2 about me, ok? hehehe). hmm, to be exact siihh, i love him with the platonic love. (please find out that word's mean. hehe)  so, listen luth, oh, to be exact again, please read luth, i'm trying to let you go from accel. i'm trying. and i don't know exactly when i could pass the goal itself. aku masih ga ikhlas ngelepas kamu dari aksel... sorry to be--errrrr--egoist like this. :(

by the way, thanks for your treat. i loooovee bigooyy!! hehehe.

2. understanding him, my boyfriend.

well, hun, u're now far away from me. i miss u so much and i just wanna hear ur voice to make sure that u're okay. so please just contact me always, ok? aku cuma takut kamu kenapa2 disana. (sorry for being possesive. :| )

3. buy twilight, new moon, eclipse, kambing jantan comic, and maryamah karpov.

weeeell, to be exaaaaacctt... i am trying to flatter my mom to give me some money so i can buy them all. huhuhuhuhu..... :'(

4. study hard for the next exam.

yes!!! (not to express my happiness with saying 'yes'. but 'yes' in the meaning of 'ya'). as we knoooowww, the other class except accel, already receive their rapot toooooooodaaayy. aaaaaaandd... just fyi, and for my reminder also, i will get my NEXT exam, which it means my upgrading-class exam, on the 2nd week of January!! sounds crazy? yes, especially for me, pals. well, do you know? i'll be on the 11th grade when i'm still 14 years old. aku masih keccciiiiillll..... huahahahaha!!! iya kalo naek, lah kalo enggak?! :p

5. study at HOME, during the holiday.

yeah! like what pak-guru-ganteng said in my class just today. *wtf*. everybody got their holidays from christmas 'til 5th january, and meee?!! and my beloved classmaaaateee??! NO WE ARE NOT!!! we MUST prepare for the NEXT exam (read: study at HOME!!!) what the heck!!

6. finishing all of my task.

which is banyak sekale bok yeeee!!!! huh hah huh hah huh hah. capeeee gue ngerjainnya!!! hufth. then, the last is...

7. shut my mouth, and go to bed. sleep. think about nothing, and have a nice dream.

well, it's hard for me now. since my boyfriend doesn't contact me at all.

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WHAT THE HECK!!!

hepi bersdey chan. :D

woaaaa.... seru sekali deh kalo mengingat masa2 itu! halah.

jadi gini lho, kemaren itu, si ochan ultah. gue ud bikin rencana abis2an dah buat ngejailin dia. huahahaha. pertama, malemnya gue smsin anak2 aksel buat ngejutekin ochan besok harinya. anak2 pun bilang oke. check!! kedua, gue bikin marah si ochan pas malem2nya. beuh! dia sampe termehek2 dah gue diemin!! kikikikik... bukan maksud hati untuk GR, tapi ochan emang lebay! udah serasa guenya siapa aja. gue marah dikit langsung heboh2 minta maaf gitu. padahal ya bok yee,, alasan gue marah tuh cuma karna dia telat bales sms! muahahaha... ochan, ochan. kasian bgt lo dapet ade angkat kyk gue. wkwkw. :p trus ketiga, tadinya gue mau beliin kue buat dia (fyi, pake uang kas. hehe), nah tapi2 si uri kasitau gue, "eh put, ye, denger, gimana kalo anak2 nanti ada yang sirik kalo kita beliin ochan pake uang kas?" dan gue pun mikir. "bener juga ni anak." alhasil beli kuenya ga jadi coy!! hiks hiks .. nah, keempat, gue cari cara sm anak2 biar ada konflik gitu yg melibatkan ochan. sayangnya, it doesn't work all out. i mean, ga pol gichu deehh!! heheh.

jadi ceritanya gini, si sarah tuh naro hape (hapenya happy) di kolong bangkunya ochan. (fyi, si ochan duduk sendirian lho waktu itu.. hahaha sumpah kasian bgt!). trus kita mitnah ochan gitu.. hahaha. asoi asoi asoi!!! tapi gue juga gatau skenario lengkapnya sih, abis gue kan sibuk nyari makanan buat dimakannya. (yaiyalah ya makanan buat dimakan. hehe :p)

nah, teruuuss, anak2 sekelas udah deh tuh pada sewot2. tapi anehnya, sewotnya ke happy. udah sampe dikatain "sok cantik lo!" segala lagi!! muehehehehehe ..tabah ya py.. :p

beuh! pokoknya itu seru deh! si irfan tereak, sarah tereak, dessy tereak, uri tereak, bahkan wijang, yang waktu itu lagi pusing mikirin essay buat dikumpulin ke agen (bukan, bukan agen koran) olimpiade geografi tingkat nasional (titlenya asoi), ikutan tereak dengan sadis. tapi serius!! muahahaha... dia ga tau rencana kita kayaknya. sempet serem juga sih gue ngeliatnya, tapi yaudalah biarin aja. ehehee.. :p

wiihh pokoknya ochan udah terduduk diam seribu bahasa deh tuh di mejanya. udah nunduuukk aja. kacamatanya dilepas, rambutnya uda acak2an, n tangannya mijit2 pelipisnya. anak2 udah pada ga tega dah tuh. tapi gue kuatkan hati mereka dengan nada menggebu-gebu, "udaaaahh lanjutin ajaaa!! sampe nangis cooooyyy!!!!" huahahahahahahaha..... gue memang seorang adik yang gatau diri. :p

after all, gue tetep sambil mikirin beli makanan apa nih buat dimakan bareng2. tadinya mau beli rujak yang biasa mangkal di depan skolah, tapi sayangohberibusayangbukansalahbundamengandung, tukang rujaknya belom dateng meeeeennn!!! oh oh oh... mengapa ini bisa terjadi pada kami, oh Tuhan?! mengapa??? mengapaaaaa??!!!!!

oh oke, kembali ke topik. nah ye, akhirnya gue sm si chulliep (alip), memutuskan untuk beli lilin aja dulu. yang penting ada sesuatu buat ditiup!!! tadinya sih mau pake baju si irfan buat dijadiin lilin, tapi kita asumsikan bahwa baju seragam kita itu terbuat dari kain yang mudah terbakar dan salah2 bisa menyebabkan kebakaran kota kalau dibiarkan! jadi kita pun lebih baik membeli lilin bukan? hehe.. sekalian ntar kalo ada yang laper ya lilinnya aja yang dimakan. hasil riset telah membuktikan bahwa kandungan zat dalam lilin itu sangat bergizi tinggi kok.

...

oke , itu bohong. kembali ke topik.

trus, kita pun masuk lagi ke skolah (beli lilinnya di warung depan skolah), dan menyalakan lilinnya di depan kelas. siap2 buat mengakhiri suprise ini. (di dalem kelas masih pada ribut2 tuh. teriak sana teriak sini.). nah, kita panggil deh tuh shereun si tukang nyanyi yang paling asoi (ga kyk heru, yang kalo nyanyi bikin orang sebaik apapun pengen nimpug pake bajay!!). well, kita pun siap2 buat menyanyikan lagu indonesia raya dengan ketukan 4/4. oh salah! maksudnya, bersiap2 buat menyanyikan lagu 'hepi bersdey hepi bersdey' gitu. hehehe. :D

wan tu tri prot. "hepi bersdey.. hepi bersdey.. hepi bersdey ochan....." gue, dessy, sm shereun bawa lilin sambil nyanyi. eh tapi kalo shereun ga sambil bawa lilin sih.

woaa!! anak2 langsung pada tereak-tereak sorak sorai heboh-heboh ajeb-ajeb, trus mereka pun ngeluarin korek buat bakar sekolah! oh nggak, itu tadinya ide gue, tapi langsung ditolak rame2. hehe. anak2 pun langsung pada tepuk tangan. n ochan? hahaha mukanya meraaaaaaaahhh banget kyk kepiting rebus yang baru ketemu pasangannya (double merah tuh!). kikikik.

kasian banget deh.

tapi seulas senyum langsung merekah di bibirnya. (anjis bahasa gue maakk!!)

dan kita pun langsung nyuru ochan tiup lilin tiup lilin gitu. berhubung lilinnya cuma 2 batang, jadi kita anggap aja si ochan ini lagi ulang taun yang ke-11. padahal sih aslinya 11+5. hehehe. udah tua kamu kak ... :)

anywaaaaaaaayy... kejutannya ga berakhir disitu loohh. masih ada coyy!! jadi gini, gue komplotan sm miss artha, guru b.inggris kita, buat ngumumin ke anak2 kalo nilai ochan tuh yang paaaaaaaaliiiinggg jelek!! pokoknya the worst of the worst deh, hehehe . :D

and ohh, four thumbs up deh buat miss artha yang udah sukses berakting segitu kerennya! wih miss.. u have a talent to be an actress lohh.. suer deh! hehehe . :p tapi tapi oh tapiii,, ada yang out of scenario gituuu!! masa jadinya yang kena marahh smua anak?!

kita dimarah2in juga coba!! huuuuu miss artha ga asikkkk!!! tapi sumpah ektingnya all out bangeeeett,, gue sampe ketipu beneran meeeeenn!!! ahahahahahahaha ... miss artha you'r so cool . :D

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another topic..

uji lagi ke bali niiihh... aku ga diajaaaaak.... huhuhu.. T.T

uhm well, sebenernya diajak sih sama mamanya, tapi akunya ga boleh sm mamapapakuuuu... hueeeeee....... :'(   huhh sebel ah ditinggal pergi gini. imusm hun .. :(

hufth. lanjut lagi.

 guys, kemaren tuh hari ibu yaaa?? hahahaha. bangun pagi2 aku langsung nyium kening mama. trus ngmg, "met hari ibu mam..." dengan tampang kucel khas bangun tidur. hehehe. kdengerannya keren kan? :p

well, tadinya aku mau beliin novel maryamah karpov buat mamah.. tapi apalah daya. duit gue dirampas buat bayar uang kas!! hihihiks.... T.T tapi emang tadinya juga duit gue tuh udah ngepress sih! dari novelnya yang berharga 79000, gue cuma punya duit 80000. jadi bisa kita lihat bukan, kalo gue jadi beli tu novel, gue pun akan cekak selama berhari2. huahahaha. trus tadinya juga mau beli novel dalam mihrab cinta yang harganya mendingan laahh.. CUMA 57000. nah gue udah ambil plus bawa2 ke kasir tuh. tapi puji Tuhan, puji Rasul, dan puji nama tetangga gue, gue sempetin diri buat cek isi kantong. oh ternyata oh ternyataaaa.... duit gue tinggal 55000!!!! uoooooohhh!!!!!!!!!!! sungguh tragisss!! wakwakakawakawkakak. akhirnya gue pun balikin tu buku ke raknya dan langsung cabut jauh2 dari tu toko buku. muehehehe. memalukaaaann ... :p

akhirnya yaaaa,,, gue ga beli apa2. pasrah deh, gue emang lagi cekak!!

hehehe.

gapapa deh ya bunda.. aku beri kau cintaku saja... :)

all in all, udah dulu ah.

ada sesuatu yang harus gue tangani. urgent!

see yaaaa... :D

i'm so.. euh!!

for god's sake! people, i just find a blog (a fashion categories one). and goddamn it's soooo cooooll!!!
i do not know how a person that is working and just 24 years old, could be as fashionable as her!!

sh*t! i wanna be like her!!

oh well, it would be a plagiarism if i copied her style of writing or what. but, ooohhhh please God! much girl did cool of her look outside there, and me?! i'm just.. a tomboy girl! no, not a tomboy-cute-look ones, but tomboy-irksome-look one!! hahahaha.. i couldn't believe how ugly myself are in people's eyes!

anyway.
beside of that i-wanna-be-afashionable-girl problem, i also wanna follow the debate competition! wtf. i have lost two chance to follow the debate competition which was held in untirta! huaaaahh!!! it's strongly hit me right into my head! just like a big stone fall down from the sky. hit my head. and written there: "you have lose!"

my goodness!! i hate being lose!!!!

oh whatever deh. i will be so depressed today if i still continue write the bullshit-unimportant-things like this! i'd rather beeeee.... prepare stuffs for my date!! huyahahahaha ...

au revoir amigo! auf wiedersehen! adios! zaijian! bye bye!

PS. wish me luck for the date. ki o tsukete you all . :)
dan jangan kapok baca tulisan b.inggris gue yang acak2an ini. maklum, lagi emosi jiwa. hahaha. thankies. :)