Aimless Post

Hello. This is me again. Tryin to twist a word or two. Right now, it's only me and digital note books, my lousy grammar, and emotions; I feel like bursting. I don’t have any idea but I know that I need to write. Or I am going to burst. Well, keep on reading. For the next numerous words, sentences or even paragraphs you will read, are just short updates.

Everyday is inconsistent, a contradiction and far from agreement. In what particular way, do not ask. Well are you sure you want to keep on reading? These are just short updates. 10:10pm and it’s so quite down here. It’s only me and the voice inside my head telling me what to write. Well, nothing. Much. I don’t know. Ah. 10:13pm now. Feels like 2am already. 1 minute feels like forever. Writing this diminutive, fastidious arrangement of words unquestionably doesn’t make me feel less of a bad writer. Having envy feelings for those who write without flaw or without intermissions. Hey, am I a bad writer, like, really, what do you think?

11:10pm. Sorry the writing was postponed. It was my brother and his mom coming visiting me. Goddamn I can’t stop smiling! It’s only hours ago when Ibu asked: “Putri kapan main ke Bandung? Lagi liburan kan?” Taunya Ibu malah telpon: “Putri, blok A3 teh dimana? Kok ga ada yang nomor 11 ya?” HAHAHAHHAHA anjir ibu nakal banget! Terus tau-tau udah muncul depan kosan aja. Dicium pipi kanan-kiri-dahi and she said: “Ibu kangen Putriiii!” Ya Allah padahal bukan Ibu sendiri tapi sayangnya bukan main. :’)

And then Ochan showed me his wrist and tadaaaaa…. He wore the watch! Haha glad it fit on you, brotha!

And guess what? Ibu brought me a cake I loveeeeeee the most from Jalan Merdeka! Ya ampuuun I’m flattered she still remembered my favorite cake! Thousand kisses for you, Ibu! And warmest hugs for yous, brother and lil brother! ({})

DAMN I STILL CAN’T STOP SMILING!

P.S. See how moody I am. There. ;p

500 Days of Summer

"Hey Tom, look. I know you think that she was the one. But I don't. Now I think you just remembering the good stuff. Next time you look back, uh... I really think you should look again." - Rachel Hansen

I've just watched 500 Days of Summer. And... My very first opinion about that movie would be: Summer Finn sucks. But she resembled me a lot. hehe. First, she had a strong belief that relationship (or in this case, commitment) is so not necessary needed since it would only hurt people's feelings and it doesn't make sense to build a commitment if it's only supposed to hurt. And she also added that she didn't want to be anybody's anything. Literally.

Well, that makes sense. And that is what I actually believed too for so many years back. The only reason why I make "relationships" with some boys is because... Well, I wanted to do that. I have told you in the latest post that I am a very impulsive person, right?

Second, the boy in that movie, Tom Hansen, is also stupid. Why? Because he fell way way way too fast on Summer! Why did he trust her that much? Why did he think that Summer is the only fish in the sea? Why did he get hurt when Summer finally ended it up? Summer had told you at first that she didn't want a serious relationship, jerk! Oh my God, what's with these men? Hasn't they grew up already?! Why do they take these relationship thingy soooo seriously? Oh man, I tell you, we're all young, we're all living in the world to seek for happiness, not the other way around. Get it? What I wanna say is, relationship sucks and messy and rude and it is not supposed to make people happy. Well, okay, it will trigger butterflies in your stomach and makes you feel like being in heaven, AT FIRST. But let's see what happen next when it comes to 300 days of your relationship. Will it still feel the same? It's not.

Ah anyways, this is just my two cents, don't take it seriously, kayss? And pardon me if I'm being offensive or something. And... I wrote this one with BB again so pardon me again if I get some typos or grammatical error or etc.

Smell you later, lovely readers! xoxo

A Process Of Growing Up, I Should Say

Hi. This is gonna be my first post written via BB. Something suddenly plops into my mind and urge me to write it out.

Well, you know my life has been quite hectic these days. Not to say, chaotic. I had a lot of activities beside the college itself (let's count: BEM-KM, PSM, Bulaksumur Pos, APPS, Senate, KoMUN ― 7). It's overwhelming, really, no need to argue and claiming me as a sok-sibuk person. I'm not trying to seem like I am, anyway.

Well I bought a time table board last month and I found it's hard ― I repeat, HARD ― to leave a box of date in blank since I got NO DAYS without NO activity consisted in it. And some of them also took the same time so it forced me to choose which one is prior and which one is not. I have been so careless about daily agenda eversince I born; my very favorite quote is: "Go with the flow. Do things that please you best, and you will find the way." I never planned something before doing it. I am a real impulsive. If I wanted to do something then I do it; if I wanted to accomplish something then I strive. Well I am a great event organizer, I should admit. But those things were just out of plan.
I never made a new year resolution for the whole time of my life. I never listed any goals and glued it on my wall or something. I am just not that kind of person, trust me.

But then college starts and everything was changing. I lived alone and it's somehow frustrating to manage everything alone without mommy's assistance. I through bunch of problems dealing with times. I forgot many meetings to come. I forgot 1-2 interviews due to the committees open recruitment. I forgot college tasks. I forgot to do that and this. I forgot nearly everything. Then I realized that it's me who got the problem. Not the too-many-activities or too-many-tasks-and-silly-lectures to blame. It's me myself. I'm being very careless upon my own life and there I stumbled on my own feet. I realized it's time for me to change my stupid belief that life doesn't need plan. It does need, in fact.

My first attempt was buying the time-table board and fill my daily agenda on every box. Then I hang it on the wall in front of my bed so every morning I woke up from sleep, I could see what was my agenda that day. I updated it as fast as I can if I get a new update of activities and/or a fixation of particular activities. So I will never forget. And well, it helps. Not to mention, a lot! And as what I've never understood before, making agenda of your daily activities is fun! It makes you organized; since you will get reminded every morning when you woke up so you will never forget about what you are going to do the whole day.

And by the way, I feel kind of more mature by doing that. I love growing up. I don't want to be infantile all over again. I am an undergraduate freshman already, for god's sake!

Well, that's all I want to share. Wish me luck for these college-things! Xoxo

P.S. Merry Christmas to those who celebrate! I'm so excited that this is the 3rd christmas for my Princess Diary! You may be old, Di, but you're still fabulous as ever! Agree, readers? ;)
P.P.S. Happy birthday Muhammad Fauzan Triandi! I miss you real bad! Hope you're gonna like the present! Be fine over there! *hugs*

College Stuff

Ada yang nyuru gue bikin post tentang materi kuliah. Boleh juga. Mumpung lagi bosen jadi gue share aja ya sekarang sama kalian semua. Gue dapet 19 SKS dan 11 mata kuliah di semester 1 ini. Oh ya, untuk yg belum tau, gue jurusan Farmasi di Universitas Gadjah Mada. hehe

Dan ke-11 mata kuliah itu adalah...
1. Farmasetika Dasar I
Jadi disini gue belajar tentang bahasa latin yang sering dipake dalam pembuatan resep. Oh trust me bahasa latin itu sama sekali nggak gampang! Setiap kata aja punya LIMA deklinasi yang pemakaiannya beda tergantung kata itu diposisikan sebagai apa (objek, subjek, dsb). Dan setiap kata juga punya jenis kelamin sendiri. Terus juga belajar tentang macam-macam sediaan obat (serbuk, tablet, kapsul, injeksi, suppositoria, dsb) -- cara pembuatan masing-masing sediaan sampai spesifikasi masing-masing sediaan. Dan di semester 2 nanti gue bakalan dapet praktikumnya which is bikin obat itu sendiri with my own hands. haha I bet it's gonna be fun. oh ya fyi, gue ga tau kenapa tapi gue selalu ngantuk lho kalo kuliah ini. Uhm.. I blame the lecturer. She is old and boring. :(

2. Kimia Farmasi Dasar I
Kalo ini kebanyakan materinya sama kayak di SMA. Well namanya juga dasar. Tapi dia lebih spesifik lagi di bagian hibridasi atom, yang sumpah ternyata susah banget! Apalagi di kuliah ini kita dibiasakan untuk membayangkan sebuah susunan molekul dalam bentuk 3D nya bukan lagi dalam bentuk 2D nya. Susah. BANGET. HAHA. And believe me praktikumnya ga semudah yang lo bayangkan men. haha (tersinggung karena waktu gue pasang jadwal praktikum jadi display picture BBM ada yang komen: "Itu bukannya materi SMA semua ya?" Sialan banget gue merasa diremehkan nih hahaha)

3. Parasitologi
We learn helminths and protozoas here. Yes helminth. Cacing. All detail about every helminth living in the world. Dari yang ukurannya dalam mikrometer sampe yang bermeter-meter, dari yang paling cute (bentuknya kayak owl) sampai yang paling menjijikkan kayak benang kusut. Oh ya tapi ini belajarnya tentang cacing yang infektif aja sih. Kalo macam cacing tanah gitu ga dibahas karena ga infektif. Oh ya ada tuh dosen yang kalo nerangin pake powerpoint, masang foto-foto ekstrim manusia yang terinfeksi cacing. Sumpah jijik banget! Ada yang rektumnya keluar dari anus gara-gara cacing apa gitu gue lupa, sampe ada yang muntahin cacing dari hidungnya gara-gara infeksi parah. Ew... Imagine that!

4. Anatomi dan Fisiologi Manusia
Kebanyakan dosen yang ngajar materi ini dari kedokteran. Gue ga terlalu suka. Entah kenapa tapi para dosen itu kayaknya menganggap diri mereka eksklusif. Penjelasannya tingkat dewa and I barely catch it, haha. Kemaren aja waktu UTS gue blank sama sekali di matkul ini. Dasarnya gue bego kali ya. Ga kebayang kalo masuk Kedokteran. -_______-"

5. Farmasi Fisik I
Ahhhh sumpah ini susah! Gabungan dari farmasi dan fisika! Sumpah gue benci matkul iniiiiiiii! Ga usah dijelasin deh pokoknya gue berantakan BANGET disini! Mana dosennya nyebelin lagi! LENGKAP!

6. Kimia Organik I
Here it is. Matkul paling dewa sepanjang sejarah. Haha lebay. Jadi kimia organik ini menekankan pembelajaran pada molekul-molekul yang mengandung atom C (carbon). Which is banyaaaak sekaaaaliiiiiiii dari yg mulai paling simple seperti metana sampe senyawa naujubilah kayak aromatik, lemak, dsb yang sumpah unbelievable sekali betapa ada molekul serumit itu di bumi ini. Dan btw, kita belajarnya pake 3D lho. I mean, kalo lo ngegambarin molekul CH4 (metana), berarti gambarnya harus C sbg atom pusat di tengah-tengah, dan keempat H diletakkan sedimikian rupa dengan sudut masing-masing 109.5 derajat sampe akhirnya itu berwujud limas segitiga yang sudutnya sama. Got it? Oh well forget it gue juga ga ngerti kok hahahahaha

7. Biologi Sel
Bukannya susah sih. Sebenernya simple. Belajar struktur sel secara detaiiiiiiiil banget dari mulai sitoplasma sampe bagian terdalam mitokondria. Semua materinya dari SMA, cuma ditelisik lebih dalam sampe ke masalah yang sangat polemik dan menentang Tuhan seperti: "Apakah keberadaan sentriol itu penting?" Jelas sentriol itu organ yang menghasilkan spindle dan berperan utama dalam pembelahan sel. Tapi itu emang polemik banget karena ternyata ditemukan bahwa sel yang sentriol-nya dibuang pun masih bisa melakukan pembelahan sel. Itu ada di Campbell di bagian sitoskeleton. Well, apa yang paling bikin nyebelin dari mata kuliah ini, adalah, dosennya. Dosen pengampu I, Pak Djoko, itu prinsip kuliahnya adalah diskusi. Jadi dia ngasih kita problem, ehm contohnya ya yang masih gue inget itu: "Membran plasma itu berasal darimana?" Hahaha konyol kan pertanyaannya?! Jelas aja dari Tuhan lah, Pak! Tapi seriously he got the answer lho! Bullshit banget. I never get the point of learning it all. Sedangkan dosen pengampu II, meskipun ga diskusi, tapi kuliahnya itu pake bahasa yang tinggiiiiiiiiiii banget. Gue sampe ga ngerti dia ngomong bahasa apa. Mana ini kuliahnya sore lagi. Udahlah tidur aja itu mah di kelas. HAHA sesat ya gue

8. Matematika dan Fisika Dasar
Ini bisa dibilang matkul yang paling "santai". Dosennya asik, materinya fully materi SMA. Jadi gue masih bisa handle dalam proses perkuliahan. Tapi tetep aja pas udah ketemu soal-soal UTS..... JRENG! Kenapa pas contoh soal gampang-gampang lah pas UTS malah kayak soal olimpiade?!!! HAHAHAHA dendam banget lah itu sama dosennya. Mana soalnya cuma 15 dan checkpoint lagi. Gimana mau dapet A coba. Salah 3 aja udah dibawah 75! Sheez.

9. Praktikum Kimia Farmasi Dasar
Praktikumnya ini sinting. Bukan masalah proses praktikumnya. Well, proses praktikumnya juga sih. Jadi kita tuh melakukan praktikum dalam rentang waktu 4 jam. Oke itu masih bisa diterima since the replication itself is about 2 or 3 times. Maksudnya replikasi itu pengulangan. Jadi satu percobaan kita ulang sampe 3 kali biar dapet data yang mendekati akurasi. Tapi oh men itu capek banget gue bersumpah! Belum lagi laporannya... Laporannya itu at least 20 lembar dan TULIS TANGAN! Di kertas F4 yang marginnya sempiiiiiiit sekali. Itu kalo udah ngerjain laporan rasanya pengen nangis lah meratapi nasib kenapa dulu milih farmasi. Anyway, bisa ngabisin 2 pulpen lho sekali bikin laporan. HAHAHA kemaren laporan terbaru gue sampe 31 halaman tuh! Dahsyat kan? Ayo sini masuk Farmasi UGM! Haha

10. Praktikum Farmasi Fisik
Hampir sama kayak praktikum KFD tapi bedanya ini lebih rumit dalam proses praktikumnya. Ga ada materi SMA. Beneran materi baru. Alat-alatnya juga nyeremin banget. Ada tuh alat namanya kuvet, kecil banget cuma sekitar 4 cm, bentuknya kayak tabung reaksi tapi dia kotak ga bulet. Dan itu harganya berapa coba tebak? 1.5 juta! JREEEEENG! Hahaha. What is so special about that damn tiny thing is that UV light can passed the glass layer. Lapisan kacanya khusus banget. Ga boleh dipegang asal. Terus ada alat namanya spektrofotometer, itu fungsinya buat ngebaca asorbansi, harganya at least 100juta. HAHA. Nyebelin banget yaaa kebayang deh kalo gue ngancurin itu alat-alat pasti langsung miskin seketika. Ah but the good news is laporannya digarap bertiga sama kelompok. Jadi lebih ringan. :D

11. Praktikum Anatomi dan Fisiologi Manusia
Kalo ini praktikumnya di Kedokteran. Materinya ecek-ecek sih, cuma kayak ngecek tekanan darah, cold pressure test, cek Hb, golongan darah, tes urin, dsb dsb dsb. Meskipun judulnya somehow sound very simple, tapi serius deh pas praktikum ga semudah itu lho. Haha apa lagi kalo ini durasinya cuma 2 jam. Belum lagi pre-test dan post-test yang nyita hampir 1 jam. Oh iya pre-test post-test! Jadi di setiap praktikum tuh ada pre-test dan post-test yang menentukan nilai akhir juga. Kalo Farmasi Fisik malah ribet lagi harus bikin resume percobaan dulu yang mesti dikumpulin sebelum praktikum. Dan pre-test nya lisan + tulisan. Nyebelin banget lah itu. Asiknya praktikum anfisman ini ga harus ngerjain laporan! hehe lumayan ngurangin beban seminggu :)

Well that's all. Maaf ya bahasanya acak-acakan. Ini gue in the middle of making a paper. HAHA. Hebat kan gue sempet bikin post segala. Eh btw comment ya sepi nih comment box gue! Hehe desperate banget ya

Well this is Putri over and out!

Life Currently...

Hey. Halo. Apakabar? Gue ga baik. Makanya ini mau curhat. Hehe. Tapi entahlah, semenjak ada Twitter, gue jadi ga pandai merangkai kata-kata. Apalagi dalam bahasa Inggris. Tapi biar deh apa adanya aja ya. Daripada gue malu gara-gara grammar acak-acakan ntar. Haha. Lagi butuh banget tempat buat cerita nih. Btw, ini lagi di Perpus Kota Jogja. Tempatnya asik buat wifi-an. Tapi sayang batere laptop gue sudah hampir empty so I gotta make it fast.

Well, how's life?

1. Pathetic, I should say. Merapi terus-terusan aktif dan Jogja, meskipun title-nya "sudah aman", tapi tetep aja debu bertebaran dimana-mana. Bikin sesek dan Jogja jadi ga semenyenangkan dulu. Gue pingin kuliah di Bandung. Kemarin waktu ke ITB sama Ochan, gue nangis di depan gedung Sekolah Farmasi-nya. Haha bego ya? Gue nyesel waktu itu ga nyoba tes ITB. Nyesel banget.

2. My love flick is even more than pathetic. Gue baru dicampakkan sama seseorang yang berada nun jauh disana di GMT+7. Well, agak berat buat ngomongin ini but I really have to, kalo nggak nanti gue meledak. Tapi gue juga bingung mau mulai darimana. Haha labil abis. Well, uhm, jadi intinya, dia bilang dia ga sayang lagi sama gue. Begitu. Dan dia juga nyuruh gue cari pengganti dia. Dia ngelarang gue buat nunggu dia balik dari Amrik sana. Dia... Dia lebih suka untuk melepas gue daripada bikin gue nunggu. Intinya gitu. Ah terserah. Pusing. Yang jelas gue patah hati. Titik.

3. Dan btw, gue juga ga terorganisir banget akhir-akhir ini. Gue terus-terusan lupa sama agenda gue sendiri. Ga dateng rapat BEM, ga ikut ini-itu, semua gara-gara lupa. Laporan praktikum dan tugas-tugas kuliah yang bejibun pun ga bisa gue handle. Bahkan tadi pagi gue terlambat dateng praktikum Anatomi, jadi ga boleh ikut pre-tes. Padahal 50% nilai diambil dari pre-tes. Parah kan? Ga tau deh. Gue merasa ini bukan diri gue yang sebenarnya. Hhh.. Kemana ya Putri yang rajin? Yang bisa nge-handle semua urusannya independently? Kemana ya? Balikin dong, yang merasa ngambil.

Hey. Post ini omong-kosong banget ya kayaknya? Gue juga ga ga tau kok gue ngomong apa daritadi. Gue cuma butuh satu media untuk cerita dan kayaknya twitter ga bisa nampung semua ini. So here goes I blog. Tapi ini serius a total bullshit banget! Hahaha nanti gue hapus deh kalo udah ga labil.

Eh! Gue ada kuliah lagi habis ini. Tuh kan hampir lupa. Nanti gue nulis-nulis lagi yang lebih meaning deh. Adios!

For Those Who Have Missed Me

I can't seem to write anything properly. But these are things you might wanna know:
1. My feet still touch the ground. Yeah, just in case some of you considered I died already or something, I'm still alive. (hooray?)
2. If I have to fill a form and I need to put an address, I will eventually write "Pogung Baru Blok A3 No. 11, YOGYAKARTA." And it feels weird.
3. My boy has just moved to America. For 10 months or so. No explanation for this.
4. My dorm is no cool. The girls are nothing more than I expected. But they're lovely sometimes. <3
5. I slept in almost all of my lectures. Don't blame me! The lecturers are all old and boring! Good news is, I never get caught. :--p
6. And the assignments are killing me in a way.
7. Also the weather.
8. Well, I love Yogyakarta. But there's no place like home. Literally.
9. Thus I wish mom moves here so I don't have to live alone.
10. Because I suck at washing.
11. And I even more suck at managing money.
12. Kay, more good news: my seniors are handsome. :3
13. And.... I got plenty of gorgeous friends who will help me unconditionally! That's the highlight! Yay!
14. Well that's all to say. Ah! One more thing. I've missed you too. :--D

Over and out!

Peristiwa Pagi Tadi

Pagi tadi seorang sopir oplet bercerita kepada pesuruh kantor
tentang lelaki yang terlanggar motor waktu menyeberang.

Siang tadi pesuruh kantor bercerita kepada tukang warung
tentang sahabatmu yang terlanggar motor waktu menyeberang, membentur aspal,
Ialu beramai-ramai diangkat ke tepi jalan.

Sore tadi tukang warung bercerita kepadamu
tentang aku yang terlanggar motor waktu menyeberang, membentur aspal,
lalu diangkat beramai-ramai ke tepi jalan dan menunggu setengah jam
sebelum dijemput ambulans dan meninggal sesampai di rumah sakit.

Malam ini kau ingin sekali bercerita padaku tentang peristiwa itu.

- Sapardi Djoko Damono
kepada GM

I Should Admit This' Just Another Piece Of Crap

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So here I am again, wakeful. I have been thinking about something lately, which is the reason why I am wide-awake every night.

Before, I was sitting in front of my laptop, my fingers rested on every letter. I wanted to write. I wanted to create just one brilliant story. But I couldn’t. I didn’t make any sense. My head was filled. What filled my head I did not know. The fear of writing again was the interruption. Once I hold a pen in my right hand and blankly stare at blank pages, I become intimidated. I am afraid that when I start writing I would discover that I do not have anything to write. Again, I did not make sense. It is funny to see that I write under circumstances like these. When I am not forced or where I am not surrounded by eventful activities or in this case, when I have nothing to write at all.

But in fact, I keep on writing and writing, shaping one word after one word, figuring what story I would come up with at the end. Nothing. Yet.

It’s actually not that I don’t have anything to write. Instead, it's actually because I have become excess with enormous quantity of words which now conquering my peanut-sized brain so I couldn’t write anything properly in this sheet at this very moment. But I guess I will force my brain to work pretty harder so I could write anything I should write down here.

Oh man. I don’t even know if my grammar is practically correct or not.

Have I triggered a pain inside your head?

Well, here. I have two major things bothering my mind quite a lot these days. First, it’s about my departure to Yogyakarta in only 4 days ahead. Why does it bother me? Because, first, the circumstance will force me to live alone in there, in my dormitory. While me, ever since I born, never actually living alone without my parents by my side. And leaving my parents that way is kind of making me frustrated. Moreover the Ramadhan month is coming even closer! I can’t cook! I can’t wake up early in the middle of the night to eat sahur! I can’t control my life the way my mom used to control it to me! I would just mess it up and my Ramadhan month would be pretty sucks. I don’t have any idea how to manage myself during the coming up living-alone life.

Okay. I have elaborated it quite structured, haven’t I? At least I've made you catch up my point, no? Err... Whatever.

Second thing, it’s about my idiot love flick! I got two major stories of all. First off, something about my “best crush” which I lately reveal pretty much obvious in Tumblr. But soooo sorry I wouldn’t share you guys the url up here. It’s way too private. Second off, something about my “best brother” which I had written in Tumblr pretty much clear—and long—as well. So, I won’t spend more time talking about the two of it in here.

See? This is nonsense. Then why in the world you start to write, Put? I do not know.

Ah… These eyes have got blurred. My head aches but I don’t feel sleepy at all. I guess I will be wide-awake for the rest of the night... But the post is quite long enough so I will just post it on and…. Poof. I’m gone.

Honey, I've told you. This is just another piece of crap and I didn't make any sense. Why did you start reading?

The Clothes You Wear

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What others see from your style

You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.

What others see from your belts

If there's not a single belt in your wardrobe, you like freedom and are opposed to all kinds of rules. You are creative and very good at work that requires you to stretch your imagination. Your main downfall, however, is that you can be very moody.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably an independent and strong-willed person. Fairness is important to you, and you always stand up for what you believe in. You are friendly and get along well with people.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

--oOo--

An analysis from here. Which I myself got it from Istina's Alaska? This Way! (thank you for sharing, Dwi!)
Well, not exactly accurate after all, but some of the points are just undeniably true! You only required to answer some questions about the clothes you usually wear, and... voila! The analysis is ready to served.

By the way, I don't have any more interesting story to write, so... this is Putri over and out!

Dear Accelers...

This heart always aches whenever I heard the words of goodbye.

Each and everyone of us is leaving
and it hurts since I would be the last one to leave.
Oh dear,
You know I'm nothing without you.
And yes, I've missed you.

Oh Man.

Creativity is evaporating out of me,

or maybe, I've never had any.

Copycatting this.
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Mommy Said I Was Freak

and I pretty much agree with her.

Too Sad To Even Think of A Title

Hermione : How does it feel, Harry? When you see Dean with Ginny?
Harry : [slightly taken aback] Oh. Um...
Hermione : I know. I've seen the way you look at her. You're my best friend.
[Ron bursts in with Lavender, laughing, then sobers when he sees Hermione and Harry]
Lavender : Oops!... I think this room's taken.
[runs off]
Ron : [awkwardly] ... What's with the birds?
Hermione : [Stands, glares at Ron] Oppugno!
[Hermione's flock of birds fly at Ron, who flees the room. Hermione sinks next to Harry and breaks down crying]
Harry : It feels like this.

- Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Does it hurt too, Harry? Because for me, yes it does hurt.

Is sad,

Photoscape Rocks!

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Well, I don't usually edit photos, but take a look on this! How can I not love editing? HAHAHA (Y)

Norak Baru Tau PhotoScape,

Graduation Day (June 26th)

(Ochan - Me - Tio)
My lovely brothers! :)


(Uthe - Sarah - Happy - Dwika - Fadhlia - Dessy - Me - Inten)
They had taken off the kebaya. Haha


(Eki - Ochan - Me)
With the medals!
Umm.. Do you notice that Ochan's medal is red while mine and Eki's are blue? He achieved the highest score on National Exam. :)


Full formation!
(Rifa - Wijang - Dwika - Eki - Fadhlia - Guntur - Happy - Tio - Me - Ochan - Etin - Farah - Helmi)
(Sarah - Uthe - Thia - Adelin - Fadhlia - Inten - Dessy)


(Me - Ochan - Guntur)
Bored while listening to those speech.


(Uthe - Me - Fadhlia)
In the restroom.

I wore 5 cm high heels, by the way.
Hurts like hell; absolutely the most terrible 4 hours in my life!
But still, it was a great day with my acceleration friends. Unequivocally.

Err.. miss 'em already. :(

Officially An Alumni Of SMAN 1 Kota Serang,

Random In The Midnight

Midnight already. And I’m still sleepless. What to do? Write a post, shall I?

Well, typically me, setiap saat sebelum tidur pasti banyak banget deh yang dipikirin. Bahkan kayaknya pikiran gue paling aktif bekerja saat menjelang tidur. Dan itu menjelaskan mengapa mimpi-mimpi gue kebanyakan campur-aduk dan abnormal. Jadi, daripada gue mimpi macem-macem, dan semua hal yang gue pikirin malah tidak tersampaikan, mending gue tulis disini aja kali ya. Haha what can I say? I always love sharing with strangers! But this is all random, kalo ada hal lain yang lebih penting untuk dikerjain, mendingan kerjain dulu aja deh. Hahaha mau dibaca nggak sih Put? Well, oke. Here, just finish the list and… In-joy!

1. Muhammad Fauzan Triandi (the same person in this post), sahabat terdekat gue selama dua tahun ini, Alhamdulillah baru saja keterima di Teknik Kimia Universitas Indonesia dan Sekolah Farmasi Institut Teknologi Bandung. To make it short, pokoknya gue seneng banget. Waktu tau dia keterima UI, gue bahkan sampe langsung terduduk lemas di lantai gitu. Padahal dia sendiri belum tau beritanya. Hahaha hebat kan gue. But he decided to take ITB anyway. Well, whatever he takes, I will always support and encourage him! Inget deh waktu dia keterima Farmasi ITB, dia langsung tanya gue, “Ade seneng?” (dengan emot nangis terharu) Gue kontan langsung bales pake capslock. “Seneng banget Ka, Demi Tuhan, kita jadi satu jurusan gini!” hahaha. But then I remember. Bandung – Jogja ya? It’s 9 hours by train. Meskipun kita nggak pacaran atau apa, tapi tetep aja dia salah satu orang paling berpengaruh dalam hidup gue. Nggak tau deh ya, apa gue bisa tahan? :'(

2. Gue putus sama Restu. Dari bulan April kemaren. Hehe basi ya? Tapi masalah ini somehow sering melintas aja gitu di pikiran gue sebelum gue tidur. Jadi gini lho sodara-sodara, semenjak gue putusin itu, dia jadi antipati banget sama gue. SMS dan mention gue di twitter kebanyakan ga dibales, kalo pun dibales juga singkat padat ga jelas gitu. Ya keki lah ya gue. Secara gue yang mutusin, ga niat juga kali gue ngejar-ngejar dia buat balikan atau apa, gue cuma pengen menyambung tali silaturahmi aja. Tapi dia kayaknya nangkepnya gue ngejar-ngejar dia gitu. Hahaha funny eh? Sampe akhirnya, entah gimana ceritanya, gue malah jadi deket sama keluarga dia. Terutama Mama dan adeknya yang paling kecil. Gue jadi sering jalan bareng si Tante gitu. Dan adeknya, De Acha, juga nempeeeel banget sm gue. Apa-apa sama gue, apa-apa sama gue. Berasa babysitter abis. Dan termasuk si Om juga; tiap dia tugas ke luar negeri pasti bawain gue oleh-oleh. Kemaren dibeliin lukisan gitu dari Jepang (lucu banget!), dan tiga cup eskrim (Haagen Dazs) dari Aussie. Haha makasih ya Om! :) Oh ya, si Tante sama Om ini katanya sih pengen banget gue sm Abang balikan lagi. Kata Om, sejak Abang jadian sama Putri, semangat belajarnya jadi meningkat (iya lho, dia sampe mendadak rangking 1 gitu! HAHAHA gue merasa keren!), terus Putri juga baik, cantik, pinter, ga macem-macem, dst dst dst. Aduh gimana ya, emang gue ini calon menantu idaman banget kali yaaa…. HUAHAHAHAHAHA minta ditampar lo Put. Oke, to make it short again (padahal udah panjang), akhirnya one day gue ngajak dia balikan. Jeng jeng jeng jeng! Iya lho gue beneran ngajakin dia balikan! Dan tau ngga apa jawabannya? “Ga mau. Gue udah suka sama orang lain.” JLEB TO THE MAX! Eh tolong ya, Restu, gue ngajak lo balikan juga karena dorongan dari orangtua lo kali, najis! Kepedean banget sih lo, sok kecakepan! Ditolak tau rasa lo! (Eh tapi kalo diterima pun pasti ceweknya ga sebaik gue) --> minta ditampar lagi.

(Me and De Acha)
*Aduh itu pipinya mita dimamam banget deh! hahaha*
Click here for more photos of me and her. ;)

3. Gue lagi demen dengerin lagu Vidi Aldiano – Cemburu Menguras Hati. Huahahahahha berasa alay ga sih? Iya, alay ya? Tapi beneran enak lho. Serius deh, vibranya Vidi tuh gimanaaa gitu berasa menggetarkan hati. Hahah anjrit gue ga banget deh ah! (fyi, bahkan sekarang pun lagu ini yang lagi playing di telinga gue. Oke, silahkan ngakak!) Eh, maaf, Vidies, no offense. :)

4. Lusa gue ke Jogja. Eh, ralat, besok deh. Ini udah Senin kan? Hehe. Iya, besok gue ke jogjaaaaa. Sendiri lho, sendiri! Hebat kan? Pengalaman pertama nih ke luar kota sendiri! Woohoo agak takut juga sih. Tapi ga apa-apa, harus mulai berani dari sekarang. Kan udah gede Put! (ceilah). Oh ya penerbangannya yang jam 6 pagi lho. Biar nyampe sana langsung ketemu Indita dan Sasha, my bestfriends I found from blogger, dan maen seharian sampe puaaaaas! Ah I bet it’s gonna be suuuuper fun! Can hardly wait for tomorrow! xD

5. Handphone gue rusak parah! Yah, emang udah jadul sih, Sony Ericsson W380i, yang ungu imut-imut gitu lho. HAHA ralat, DULU sih iya imut-imut waktu masih baru, sekarang mah amit-amit gelaaa! Udah sompel-sompel gitu keypadnya (terus masa kata Tio itu sengaja gue sompelin?! Ya nggak lah! Kurang kerjaan amat coba gue!); USB port-nya udah bapuk, connector buat charger dan headset juga udah mendekati ajal (mau ngecharge susah banget meeen!), layarnya udah penuh goresan, flip-flapnya hampir copot, dan masih banyak lagi kecacatannya. Hahaha kayaknya kalo gue jual IDR 50.000 juga ga akan ada yang mau bok ya? Tapi tenang kata Papa nanti dia mau beliin gue hape baru. Tapi nggak sekarang, katanya gue belum perlu. Lagi liburan ini kan? Ntar pas udah mau deket-deket kuliah aja. Dan yang ini otomatis ga akan dijual dong, penuh kenangan gitu selama dua taun di aksel. :) (anyway, kayaknya sih ga akan beli BB deh yaaa… entah kenapa gue ga tertarik banget sm BB. Affordable sih sebenernya, bokap gue juga bukannya ga mampu beliin BB, tapi guenya ga kepengen aja gitu. Kayaknya mending nokia E63 ato iPhone sekalian! BB overrated banget, gue malah jadi berasa alay kalo make BB, apalagi kalo dipakenya cuma buat twitter-an dan fb-an. Iuuhh). Eh, no offense lagi ya BB user! Pendapat pribadi gue kok. :)

6. Gue lagi sakit perut PMS nih. Ini juga jadi salah satu alesan sakral kenapa gue susah tidur gini daritadi—selain semua alasan diatas tentunya. Huhuuuu kata si Kakak sih suru diangetin pake air anget, tapi males bikinnya harus keluar kamar. :’(((

7. I miss him. I miss my brother. Awfully. Dia lagi di Bandung sekarang. Oh this can’t be any clearer. Hahaha yes I miss Mr. Fauzan Triandi—who never actually missed me back. But I just do. I don’t care if he missed me too or not. I just…. miss him. Tuh kaaaan kalo nanti kepisah Bandung – Jogja gimana cobaaa? Huhuhu :’( (mulai mellow)

8. Oke, post ini kayaknya terlalu frontal ya? Tapi bodo ah. :P

9. Oh ya, missing your own brother is not a mistake, eh? I used to do all sorts of things with him. We shared the desk during our two years in acceleration, kemana-mana bareng (kecuali ke WC), kalo minta pendapat pasti harus ke dia dulu, dan begitupun dia ke gue. Kalo ngobrol di telpon bisa sampe jam setengah 12 malem, sebelum akhirnya dua-duanya ngantuk dan tidur deh. hahaha. Jadi kayaknya aneh aja gitu kalo mulai kuliah nanti, ga ada dia lagi di sisi gue. Ga ada yang siap sedia dengerin cerita gue lagi 24 jam. Ga ada yang nenangin gue kalo gue lagi ada masalah, sampe nangis-nangis sesenggukan di depan dia. Pasti bakal aneh banget kan. Dan anyway, dia bakalan pindah ke Bandung, entirely his family, mulai pertengahan Juli besok. Jadi, kalo gue nanti pulang ke Serang, gue ga bisa maen sama dia. Harus ke Bandung! Anjriiit sedih banget ga sih. Huhuhuks :'(((

10. Sudah poin ke-10 dan gue belum juga ngantuk.

11. How’s the World Cup goin’? I don’t really into it, anyway. Gue ga terlalu suka bola. Tapi kayaknya gue dukung Perancis deh. Habis negaranya kan bagus, jadi pasti menang. Haha ga nyambung deh Put. Ya gitu lah pokoknya. Gue ga ngerti bola. Apa sih serunya ngeliatin 22 orang rebutan satu bola di lapangan gede gitu? Mana suara terompetnya weird banget lagi, kayak suara tawon ga berenti-berenti gitu! Hih mending nonton NBA kemana-mana deh! (YAY LAKERS!) Oh ya tapi opening ceremony-nya kemaren keren juga lumayan. Hahaha cemen abis gue nonton itunya doang.

12. Ah yaaaa tanggal 26 besok gue farewell lho! Eh, tapi jadi nggak ya? Duh, ga asik banget kalo ga jadi. Semoga jadi deh. Adek-adekku anggota OSIS yang keren, kerja yang bener ya biar farewell-nya jadi, gue udah booking kebaya lho. Hohoho, dan gue juga udah ngebayangin temen-temen aksel gue yang pada bocek (childish –red) itu make kebaya dan jas. Pasti keren-keren semua deeehh… xD

13. Hamster gue hari ini ulang tahun yang ke-sebulan lho! Hahahaha iya dong udah sebulan tinggal di rumah gue. Keren kan bisa awet gitu… Eh, btw, udah gue kasih makan belum ya tadi? Ah tau ah. Mereka harus diet, udah terlalu gendut! Bahaya kan kalo sampe obesitas… (alibi padahal emang males ngasih makan)

Here they are... Hahaha iya hobinya emang ngegigitin besi kandang. Namanya Rhino dan Eric.
Ahh... Aren't they cute as hell? :#)
Click here for more photos of them.

14. *stare the clock* *yawn* Udah jam setengah satu nih, kayaknya gue mau tidur aja deh.

Well, this is Putri over and out. CIAO!

Benetton Color

Benetton Color for Man. Loving it.

PS. Thank you, Muhammad Fauzan Triandi for giving me this. hehe :)

SAJAK-SAJAK KECIL TENTANG CINTA

/1/
mencintai angin
harus menjadi siut
mencintai air
harus menjadi ricik
mencintai gunung
harus menjadi terjal
mencintai api
harus menjadi jilat
/2/
mencintai cakrawala
harus menebas jarak
/3/
mencintai-Mu
harus menjelma aku

- Sapardi Djoko Damono

Don't you just get the shiver?

When

How do you know when you’re in love with someone? Is it when he’s the first thing that comes into your mind when you wake up and the last thing that you think of before you go to sleep? Or is it when your heart melts every time he looks into your eyes? The truth is, the signs come in a thousand different ways.

When you’re having a really bad day and hearing his voice on the phone just makes it all go away. When all you want to do is listen to him talk passionately about his plans for the future. When you would sacrifice your shopping time just to cheer him up on the field. When a mention of his name makes you miss him so much. When all you want to do is staying up and taking care of him when he’s sick. When your face glows every time you meet him. When even the way he laughs and eats and sleeps fascinate you. When you realize you can finish each other’s sentences. When you can recognize his perfume from miles away. When you laugh when he laughs. When you love seeing the reflection of yourself in his eyes. When you can’t stop smiling every time people talk about the two of you. When you remember him in your prayer. When you feel that he’s the only one who can understand you. When everything that makes him happy will make you happy, no matter how hurtful it is inside. When you’re often torn between your own egocentricity and your feelings for him. When really you’re mad at him but all you want to do is cry on his shoulder. When you can’t help glancing at him every other second as you’re both in the car and he’s seriously watching the traffic. When you actually enjoy the moment when he’s teasing you eventhough you’re pissed. When you dreams of yourself being married to him with kids. When you want to be the woman who makes him coffee and puts on his tie every morning. When you’re seriously reconsidering the relocation because it means leaving him as you move to another country. When you find his boyish whining attitude is endearing. When you find his snoring endearing. When you have your own nickname for him. When every time his name pops up in your inbox you smile. When you gladly wipes his sweat as he changes your flat tire. When you find his singing entertaining eventhough he can’t carry a tune. When you forget when was the last time his name doesn’t cross your mind. When you can remember perfectly the sound of his funny laugh, his fake laugh, and his amused laugh. When he’s the only face you want to be on your 500 bucks Anya Hindmarch be-a-bag. When you would stay awake just to watch him sleep. When you’re seriously thinking of getting a tattoo of his name on your left. When he makes you happy and makes you cry at the same time. When you want him to always be your ‘imam’ when you’re praying. When you’re glad that you can be helpless sometimes because it means you can rely on his strong arms to help you. When being with him makes you want to be a better person. When everything could go wrong in the world and it’s okay, because he’s there, with you.

- as written on Ika Natassa's Tumblr.

Bold what you feel and lemme know if you post it later on. :)

Much love,